My uneasiness is because of excessive sperm production which creates a tension when I see a woman around me. Sometimes it makes me angry at other males. My testosterone levels are pretty high. When I jerk off, the consciousness gets cleared up. Of course, all these things are necessary because nature has provided these things to me for the purpose of survival and procreation. I should stop being such a wanker and get a wife soon but that seems like worldly attachment again. This is the quagmire which I call my life.
On Wed, Aug 11, 2010 at 1:26 AM, godszen <[email protected]> wrote: > The "I AM" is the sense, or feeling, of you spirit/presence, embodied > in a human form. It is the sense/feeling of anxiety/tension that you > feel in your mind/body. This uneasiness is what the Buddha called > "dukkha". What Adi Da calls the "contraction". As one pays attention > to this feeling of uneasiness, one can gradually become clear of the > situation at hand. As the effort of paying attention is continued, one > can learn to gradually relax the tension/contraction of their spirit. > As this tension eases up, a sense of relief and even bliss gradually > takes hold. As the spirit becomes unbound, it can begin to sense and > feel directly, the objects around it, and even itself. > > If one is fortunate enough, he meets the satguru. The satguru > literally baptizes the disciple/spirit in His completely unbound > energized love/bliss radiant Presence, over and over again, thereby > helping speed up the process of relaxing, unbinding, liberating the > embodied spirit from its self-tied knot of contraction.
