Re: What do You Regret Not Doing
Greetings all.
I truly regret how I was as a youth and I was, am and always will be absolutely responsible for my actions. First, let's start out with what I did before finishing with what I did not do. I was at daycare from 1988 through the middle of 1989 so from age 3 up to age 5. Instead of being nice to the others, I was a bully and I enjoyed biting, scratching and pushing people. They tried to correct me by smacking my hand but I kept getting worse. Indeed I suffered but I was willing to go through hell if it meant that I could take as many people as I could with me. Now you may be thinking he's just exaggerating; I assure you I am not. People have a nasty habit of telling me that I was too young to be so fixated on destruction but I say age has nothing to do with it. Another thing I did when I was 6 through 11 years old was to bully animals. I deliberately hit and kicked the dogs and even trapped the big dog's neck between the doorframe and door. Yes I knew the dog was there and I did it anyway. I couldn't be satisfied with animals either; I bullied people throughout my schooling both junior and high school. I even resorted to theft and stole the robots CD my IT teacher gave me and I say I stole it because I didn't return it when I should have done. During college, I wouldn't take no for an answer and tried to get my support worker to date me knowing that she wasn't allowed to do so. The one thing I didn't do was to call for help when someone was being beaten up at another college in 2010. I did try professional counselling and even going to confession with a priest but nothing worked. I didn't truly start to improve until April 2017 when I became an absolute pacifist and subscribed to the ideology/philosophy as given in the testament of truth.
Kind regards, Amin Abdullah.
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