Figure they can't model their behavior on mine. Which is, remember the dead, forgive the living.
My dad can't forget -- he's tortured every moment, as I was, some months ago, but for some reason he's afraid of turning off the television. Perhaps if he does, the world will end. I've long past stopped worrying about ending the world -- does it take immorality or numbness or what have you? I don't think so. The chimpanzee story, when I found it, broke me apart. I can still laugh and play with people I meet on the internet, and discuss children with God [really, talking to myself, or consulting my own mind, but that's God talking internally to me, as the child smiles is God talking external to me]. I suppose, given the technology we're on a non-stop vector to a singularity. I was reading some stuff I wrote on old paper, it's all good, I was as brilliant then as I am now, but I have some years of hard experience to color my wisdom. But that voice of a younger man only serves to make me feel good about myself. It tells me nothing I don't already know. The New Yankee Workshop guy, and Bob Vila also tell me that even with my policy, it's like putting an old rotten house back on a new foundation -- next to useless and absurd to boot. Well, if we can all just forget past grievances, that is a form of reboot. Genocide is a form of reboot. There are other forms. What does it take to forget? I don't know. I had a conversation with the butcher, and she pretty much said y'all are going to destroy me. I said, suk my dik. Then, after that tense moment of fear and anger we got along fine. She even said the old baloney and lunchmeat wasn't good enough for me to eat, when I asked if I could have a sandwich from her refrigerator. I don't know if that's an answer, but I'm still enjoying myself. There are a couple of fine fillies I would desperately like to spend a pleasant evening with, one on one, for male-female company, even if we just jabber. I see them regularly. I eat. I am stimulated to laugh and to think. What more could God give a man? I don't know, it's so obvious to me, like the yadablah pyramids, and particle-wave theory. Big Bang stuff is a bit outside my realm, but my intuition tells me it's good information, even if it may be wrong. I need to get to bed, I'm to watch the 5 am morning news.
