So. Just got home from a wedding tonight. While it was beautiful as most all weddings are, it just wasn't the same. I couldn't get into it. I couldn't snap out of my depression. I put on a good front, but I couldn't dance. I couldn't even get a buzz from the many drinks I had. I talked and chatted. Smiled and socialized. But.... All around people were talking about the WTC and the Pentagon, and what's next ..... Being a part of these lists and watching all of the news coverage these past few days, because I work from home, did me a disservice tonight. I think that if I hadn't had so much exposure to all of the arguments and all of the stories and all of the crying, I might have had something to talk about. Questions to ask. But I was finding that no matter what anybody talked about or asked, I'd seen or heard of it all. In fact, I was answering people's questions, giving them the latest news, etc. I've seen almost every broadcast from every angle. Seen almost all the pictures. Read almost all the papers. Wall Street Journal. Daily News. Star Ledger. The Post. USA Today. Daily Record. Talk about too much information. But I can't get away from it. I want to know what's going on. I need to know. And because of this I couldn't inwardly enjoy the cousins celebrating their new life, watch everyone dancing and laughing, without thinking of all the poor people still missing. The exhausted rescue workers. The poor dogs passing out from the smoke. And feeling so absolutely helpless because there isn't a darn thing I can do to help them, except spend all of my wishes on them and pull for them in spirit. :( <sigh> Thanks for letting me vent. I'm glad I have this outlet. It's even nicer because I'm not really looking for answers or advice, just need to get these thoughts off my chest....kind of like having a faithful pet to talk to, only better, because you're all dear people and I know I'm not alone. Stay well and safe, Erika (with a *K*) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Get the mailserver that powers this list at http://www.coolfusion.com Archives: http://www.mail-archive.com/[email protected]/ Unsubscribe: http://www.houseoffusion.com/index.cfm?sidebar=lists
