HUGS Nancy. I hope that sharing this with all of us will lighten your burden. I truly do believe that letting others share in this is one way to relieve some of the hurt you are feeling. My heart goes out to you,Nancy, and I hope you can get to the point where you will listen to your vet and know in your heart that you did nothing to hurt that little guy. You have to know that you did everything for him and loved him unconditionally... He knew that and would want you to give your self a break. It is hard to know what to say to help but I wanted to let you know that I am here for you. Mj n benji
>From My iPad On Nov 7, 2010, at 4:06 PM, Nancy Lucky <[email protected]> wrote: I bought something very similar to this at pet express - all natural - no additives or hormones - but abbey did not like it at all. I am going to try it again and see if Maggie likes it. it was 8.00 for a bag of about 8 ounces - i was glad that they had small bags to try and this lady there who feeds her babies raw says this is the next best thing. I do cook my girls organic free range chicken and they have that for breakfast and love it. I am still on the fence but falling softly over....this is my fear the night before my Sami passed away my girlfriend brought him over a ham hock bone that she used to make beans with. My other girlfriend told me that I should not give it to him - but then Denise came over and said has Sami tried the bone yet so I let him have it and of course he loved it all the bone marrow. I have a picture of him eating it as he was so happy. That was the night he got sick and then he died at 1 pm and I have carried this guilt in my heart for so long as I felt I killed my baby. I am crying right now as I am writing this as no matter what anyone tells me, I keep going back to that bone and blaming my self. My sweet girlfriend felt so guilty too - she even slept here at my house for several days as I was suicidal it was one of the lowest parts of my life ever and I felt that I killed my baby who I adored and would of ran in the street to save him. My vet thinks that it has nothing to do with it but I do. Of course to do a necropsy it is 2,000 and I could not afford it. This is the first time I have shared the whole story as it is still so painful to me to think that I killed my baby boy that loved me so much and trusted me. I got him when I first got ill and lost my job of 25 years and a baby boutique that I owned with my daughter-in-law and my health and all my friends at work who were like family to me - so he was my whole world. So that is my fear. I felt like the worst mommy ever. I took Sami to the vet every time he sneezed. I had even taken him to ER one night because he threw up and it cost me 1,000. He had been to the vet three days before this because he had a little limp and I was worried. I am going to stop emailing you all about this as I want to put it to rest, but I felt that I needed to share my truth with you all as you have all been so honest with me. I feel God placed you wonderful women in my life at a time I so desperately needed you all. When you think about what one little chihuahua can do to change you life and the people you meet it gives me chills. I have wanted to tell you all the whole story but it takes me time to trust and plus I still carry so much quilt in my heart. Maybe you can pray for me that God will lift this burden from me. I pray every night but it is still with me. I know that someday I will see the little 3lb boy who changed my life again. Thank you for letting me share. With love and blessings to all, Nancy and her girls --- On Sun, 11/7/10, Deanna Corey <[email protected]> wrote: From: Deanna Corey <[email protected]> Subject: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen To: [email protected], [email protected], [email protected], "Poodle Group" <[email protected]>, [email protected], [email protected] Date: Sunday, November 7, 2010, 1:48 PM Hey Everyone, A friend of mine recently sent me some Honest Kitchen dog food samples...THANKS J.A.!!! And we finally got around to trying it out this morning. I normally feed raw...and do grind for the littles as I worry about bone fragments...but I have to say they all went CRAZY for the one called Force...which is a dehydrated but raw Chicken, veggies and fruit...no grains. I wondered if any of you have ever used it. They did like the other one...the VERVE...which is the beef option but went absolutely NUTS for the FORCE. I have never seen them so excited over a food. Would you guys look into it or tell me if you use it what you think??? PROS???? CONS????Thanks in advance! Waggin' Tails in The Dog Park, Deanna and The Dog Park Pack: Nugget, Shuai-Li, Mouse, Myrtle, Mable, and Caleb and honorary non-dog members of The Dog Park: Stella-Macaw, Stanley-Amazon, Miles the cat www.joys4toys.com
