Shanna, Thank-you so much for your very understanding and loving letter. When I got done reading it I went through all of my pictures of Sami and did an album for him on Face Book. It brought back so many wonderful memories and I got to see that beautiful face again. He was such a beautiful boy and he really was a momma's boy - he did not care for a lot of people and he was very protective of me. But the people he knew and trusted he loved with all his little heart. I did not get him from a well known breeder - I actually owned a baby store and down the street was a piercing tattoo store. He had the cutest little girl chi named Turtle who he got from his friends in the mountains. When Turtle parents had another litter I bought Sami and I paid 500.00 for a non registered dog and I knew nothing about how he was breed or cared for - but it was love at first sight. The first bath I gave him, I put the towels in the dryer for him so they would be warm and when I dried him he growled at me. Well I stopped that by putting him on his back and telling him no and he never ever showed me any aggression again. I did have to work with him with the grand kids but he learned and became such a love. I got private lessons from a great trainer and she taught me how to train him and it worked and so began our love story. He went every where with me and the nights I was in pain, he would lay and lick my legs as that is where my pain was. He knew me better than I knew my self. He brought me so much love and joy. Thanks so much for letting me talk about him and giving me permission to still grieve - it was a year last month. I am sitting here right now watching my two little girls nestled in their heated bed sound asleep - they look so precious. I tried to pick up the baby to have her lay with me for awhile but she wanted back in bed with her sister. I think one of the reasons that I got another baby was because I still have this fear that something will happen to one of them and then at least I will not be alone again. But Abbey also lost her best friend who she played with every day as they moved out of state and everyday when we walked by her house she would cry and scratch at the door. So when Abbey's breeder sent me an email out of the blue and said that she breed Abbey's parents one last time and only one baby made it that she had this feeling that I needed to have her - so the rest is history. I am attaching a few pictures of Sami and thank you for asking I had so much fun doing his album on face book. Hugs and blessings and thanks so much for reaching out to me, it meant a lot to me. Can you believe my girlfriend and I put him in a dress - I just thought he was so pretty that he would make a beautiful girl - but even in a dress he was all boy!
--- On Sun, 11/7/10, Kavi <[email protected]> wrote: From: Kavi <[email protected]> Subject: Re: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen / TO NANCY :) To: [email protected] Date: Sunday, November 7, 2010, 7:47 PM Hi Nancy I read your story. its very heartbreaking to read. I think most of us have something in our lives that we wished we did not do at the time and regret it. I am not sure how long it has been since Sami passed, but each day will get better. Keep in mind that while he was with you, you gave him the best years he could ever have asked for. Now... do you think Sami would want you to be sad, depressed? NO.. he would not. I believe when he was here with you, when you were sad or depressed he comforted you.. and made you feel better. So now he does not want you to feel guilt, sadness, or be depressed. He is with you and watching you always, but he can not make you feel better unless you know that is what he wants. Sometimes, writing a letter to him, talking to his picture, singing, reading to him... will make YOU feel a bit better. You can say all the things you wished you could say. Talking to other people about it also can help. do not keep it inside. We are here for you.. if you want to tell us all about it 100's of times, we are here for you and will listen and give you full support. :) I cant say that I have ever been in your exact position, but I feel your pain. I know what guilt is like to carry with you. I am to this day, still carrying guilt about doing something that my grandma asked me not to do when I was 23, (now 56) but I did it anyway cause I was talked into it. Because I did what she asked me not to do, she was without her car forever! I dont want to really get into it, but I do know what carrying guilt is all about. We have to focus on the future, and live day to day. Its hard... I know, but we have to try. That is the way I live day to day. I hope you will please still write about Sami here on the group. Send some pictures too. I do not think I have ever seen pictures, as I am fairly new. and I love doggie pic! I had to write what I felt... I hope no one is upset. :) I hope to see pic soon Shanna --- On Sun, 11/7/10, Nancy Lucky <[email protected]> wrote: From: Nancy Lucky <[email protected]> Subject: Re: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen To: [email protected] Date: Sunday, November 7, 2010, 3:06 PM I bought something very similar to this at pet express - all natural - no additives or hormones - but abbey did not like it at all. I am going to try it again and see if Maggie likes it. it was 8.00 for a bag of about 8 ounces - i was glad that they had small bags to try and this lady there who feeds her babies raw says this is the next best thing. I do cook my girls organic free range chicken and they have that for breakfast and love it. I am still on the fence but falling softly over....this is my fear the night before my Sami passed away my girlfriend brought him over a ham hock bone that she used to make beans with. My other girlfriend told me that I should not give it to him - but then Denise came over and said has Sami tried the bone yet so I let him have it and of course he loved it all the bone marrow. I have a picture of him eating it as he was so happy. That was the night he got sick and then he died at 1 pm and I have carried this guilt in my heart for so long as I felt I killed my baby. I am crying right now as I am writing this as no matter what anyone tells me, I keep going back to that bone and blaming my self. My sweet girlfriend felt so guilty too - she even slept here at my house for several days as I was suicidal it was one of the lowest parts of my life ever and I felt that I killed my baby who I adored and would of ran in the street to save him. My vet thinks that it has nothing to do with it but I do. Of course to do a necropsy it is 2,000 and I could not afford it. This is the first time I have shared the whole story as it is still so painful to me to think that I killed my baby boy that loved me so much and trusted me. I got him when I first got ill and lost my job of 25 years and a baby boutique that I owned with my daughter-in-law and my health and all my friends at work who were like family to me - so he was my whole world. So that is my fear. I felt like the worst mommy ever. I took Sami to the vet every time he sneezed. I had even taken him to ER one night because he threw up and it cost me 1,000. He had been to the vet three days before this because he had a little limp and I was worried. I am going to stop emailing you all about this as I want to put it to rest, but I felt that I needed to share my truth with you all as you have all been so honest with me. I feel God placed you wonderful women in my life at a time I so desperately needed you all. When you think about what one little chihuahua can do to change you life and the people you meet it gives me chills. I have wanted to tell you all the whole story but it takes me time to trust and plus I still carry so much quilt in my heart. Maybe you can pray for me that God will lift this burden from me. I pray every night but it is still with me. I know that someday I will see the little 3lb boy who changed my life again. Thank you for letting me share. With love and blessings to all, Nancy and her girls --- On Sun, 11/7/10, Deanna Corey <[email protected]> wrote: From: Deanna Corey <[email protected]> Subject: [Chihuahuas] Honest Kitchen To: [email protected], [email protected], [email protected], "Poodle Group" <[email protected]>, [email protected], [email protected] Date: Sunday, November 7, 2010, 1:48 PM Hey Everyone, A friend of mine recently sent me some Honest Kitchen dog food samples...THANKS J.A.!!! And we finally got around to trying it out this morning. I normally feed raw...and do grind for the littles as I worry about bone fragments...but I have to say they all went CRAZY for the one called Force...which is a dehydrated but raw Chicken, veggies and fruit...no grains. I wondered if any of you have ever used it. They did like the other one...the VERVE...which is the beef option but went absolutely NUTS for the FORCE. I have never seen them so excited over a food. Would you guys look into it or tell me if you use it what you think??? PROS???? CONS????Thanks in advance! Waggin' Tails in The Dog Park, Deanna and The Dog Park Pack: Nugget, Shuai-Li, Mouse, Myrtle, Mable, and Caleb and honorary non-dog members of The Dog Park: Stella-Macaw, Stanley-Amazon, Miles the cat www.joys4toys.com
