My dear CML friend: I will do as you ask & probably have already done it at one time or another. (smile) You know how this "gleevec fog" is, I'm sure. A couple of weeks ago, I came to the realization that I "must be complaining" a little to much around people & my hubby especially.......so, I decided that I was going to stop it, no more complaining from me. Like I said a few weeks ago after going to the Cancer center in St. Louis for my check up.......God showed me a few things & one stood out front and center. It was a man sitting in a wheel chair right across from where I was sitting. It was very obvious that he had suffered from some type of mouth & throat cancer. I realized then that, Yes, CML is bad, but there are much worse things in life to have or to go through. Then, I was sent back in to the treatment center for my flu & pneumonia shot. All the beds were lined up around full of people receiving chemo treatments for one type or another of something. It really had an affect on me seeing this.........I am very thankful for my "little pill" even though it costs a pretty penny, it does work. Sometimes, I believe it necessary that we get a "wake up call" such as what I saw at the center to "remind" us things could be much worse. It's been quite a journey since my dx'es, that's for sure, but God has been there with me every step I've made since (he says he'll never leave me nor forsake me, & I fully trust that). I've often said that I know He sits in heaven and laughs when I go for blood work or BMB's because he knows exactly how I feel about needles, blood, & pain. I mean, I have passed out so many times growing up as a child from just getting my finger stuck. (smile) I've even passed out one time and fell off the exam table splat in the floor when I was a child. The nurses forgot & left me sitting there when they went out of the room for a moment. My mother was a nurse there, and from then on the word was whenever I was brought in for some type of illness, "Stay with her, don't leave her alone for a second, she faints!" All the way up to even when I went in for my blood test to get married, they were saying this. (smile) Me & God had a real good talk about his once I was dx'ed. I told him "You really think this is funny, don't you?" And, over this period of time, I have learned to deal with my "fears" & can now go in for my labs "by myself" as long as I don't watch & as long as they talk to me and keep my mind occupied, I'm ok. Now, if they leave me sitting too long, I can work myself up really good.......(smile).....so I take a book to read & try relaxing andnot focus solely on having the blood work done. Or, if my hubby or someone else goes with me, they talk to me & that helps as well. Sorry, I think I'm ramblin' again. Just know prayers are being said......& if anyone in our group wants to be included by name for something specifically, you can e-mail me privately if you don't want to do it here. Thanks to all & remember
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