Thanks Trey........my husband tried to lift my spirits later telling me how extremely small amount that was....but, I just told him that I knew that.......I just wanted it to stay "0" instead of one time & then back up. He then said, "it says right here, "This is consistent with CML. You're just going to have to accept that you have this disease and it is not going to totally go away!" Of course, I knew all of this......but like I said, I have been sort of emotional lately for some reason & was just a bit touchy. Didn't take much to send me to tears & with the day I had yesterday, receiving those results when my hopes were soooooooo high after the last ones, it just sent me to the bottom pits quickly as the last straw.........Thankfully, I don't get this way very often.......I'm in a much better place today. My faith helps tremendously.
You know, though, I think this was kind of good. Cause when my husband sees that "negative" he gets it into his head..."See, you're just fine.......nothing wrong, you're healthy as a horse!" He's like all the people around you who know you and your disease....they see you and think "wow, she looks so healthy. Can't be nothing wrong with her." They don't understand the days I've spent laying on the sofa too tired to get up........or the achy muscles and joints.......the nausea that knocks you for a loop.......the nights spent staring at the ceiling because you can't go to sleep.......the times you lose all train of thought and you search your brain for what you were just talking about....the thought that you are losing your mind........the muscle cramps......night sweats.....then getting chills on top of the sweats....the headaches.......shall I go on, because I can. I think seeing those results yesterday brought it all back to him that this is what I have to live with daily for the rest of my life. Thanks, too, Suzzy, for your kind words. Yes....thinking positive helps & I'm back there........like I said.....feeling sorry for myself is not one of those things I do very often......but hits me once in a blue moon & then it's gone. I would rather look at the good stuff.....the funny stuff in life.....I know that there are those who are worse off than I.......more stuff to go through & deal with than what I have. So....thank you all who post here......I appreciate all of you more than I could ever say. Keep Looking Up, Suzieq --~--~---------~--~----~------------~-------~--~----~ [CMLHope] A support group of http://cmlhope.com ------------------------------------------------- You received this message because you are subscribed to the Google Groups "CMLHope" group. To post to this group, send email to [email protected] To unsubscribe from this group, send email to [EMAIL PROTECTED] For more options, visit this group at http://groups.google.com/group/CMLHope -~----------~----~----~----~------~----~------~--~---
