-Caveat Lector-

an excerpt from:
Other Altars - Roots and Realities of Cultic and Satanic Ritual Abuse and
Multiple Personality Disorder
Craig Lockwood�1993
CompCare Publishers
3850 Annapolis Lane, Suite 100
Minneapolis, MN 55441
612.559.4800/800.328.3330
ISBN 0-89638-363-6
255+pps � out-of-print/one edition.
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A very interesting and excellent book.
Om
K
--[5]--

Chapter 5

Existence, Anxiety, And Awe

"When large numbers of People together are afflicted with doubt, angst,
ennui, loss of purpose, or whatever the term is to be applied to a condition
of mental insecurity, their attempts to provide satisfactory explanations of
the human condition take on a frantic aspect. "
-James Webb, 1973

Something's always going wrong�every day, somewhere in the world. Something's
always happening that human beings can't control or even explain. We live in
an unpredictable world characterized by cycles of life and death.

Few people pass through life untouched, in any society, in any culture.
Nobody lives for long without facing ordinary loss and pain-or even
catastrophe. Each of us, no matter what our station, experiences continual
inconvenience at the day-to-day level. Summing it up concisely is the
depressing but accurate aphorism: shit happens.

Something's always needing to be fixed, stopped, changed, rearranged.

And if it's not something, then it's someone. And if we can't fix it by
request, demand, law, statute, decree, threat, war, or any of a thousand
other solutions that humankind has used during its short process of
civilization, then some feel the need for stronger solutions.

Response to this perception of need can take many forms. Positive
manifestations represent humankind's highest spiritual expressions�Mother
Theresa working with the poor in a Calcutta slum or the tireless efforts of
those who work in hospices, among the homeless, or with terminally ill
children.

Negative responses, such as the fanatic mass suicide of members of Jim
Jones's People's Temple, or David Koresh's Branch Davidians, or the
body-consuming Palo Mayombe sorcery of Jesus Constanzo, exhibit the flip side
of the coin.

Existential Dilemma

No matter how much technology and science contribute to the quality of
contemporary Western life, they are never enough to create complete safety.

Disease is a perpetual human condition. Bacteria, viruses, ticks, lice,
mosquitoes, poisonous things that fly and crawl and swim leave children and
adults paralyzed, disfigured, and maimed.

Nature's catalog of woes is legion. Blizzards. Floods. Drought and
defoliation. Dust or sandstorms. Fire. Or earthquakes.

Add to this all the problems humanity contributes. Industrial pollution
overwhelms eastern Europe. Atomic radiation from a failed reactor poisons a
vast area in Russia. Tank cars derail in California, spilling deadly
chemicals into a trout stream. Smog chokes the citizens of Los Angeles,
Tokyo, and Mexico City. Fleeing war, insurrection, genocide�people overwhelm
others. Starvation cuts an agonizing swath throughout human populations.

Predators, Prayers, and Awe

Humanity's humane side meanders like a slender stream of pure water through
history. Though it will eventually brush most of us, for many it comes either
too late or too little. And yet, by and large, decent humans outnumber the
indecent-even if they don't seem to have the same impact.

Buddha, Jesus, Mohammed, St. Francis, and Mother Theresa are the exception.
Their lights burn so powerfully that they glow for centuries. Without this
kind of spiritual sustenance, the race might die of despair. It is our
spiritual nature, however, that sustains us, and often ensures survival of
the species.

Awe forms part of this important spiritual quality. Part veneration, part
dread, part terror, part wonder, awe speaks to that part of us we call
"soul." Awe is the emotional language of sublime reverence.

Awe, as with love, fear, hate, anxiety, and suspicion, dwells within every
human. We can experience the feeling of awe not only for the sublime, but for
the sinister as well.

Awe, inspired by love, kindness, consideration, and compassion, is an
uplifting spiritual quality. Inspired by dread, fear, and terror, awe renders
us helpless and groveling. This duality is the paradox of human spirituality.
It makes the worship of evil possible.

Our awe-inspired dark side engulfs humanity, enveloping us in fear, cloaking
us with superstition and suspicion.

So where do we turn? Some of us get down on our knees in a conventional place
of worship. We pray as mainstream Protestants, Jews, Catholics, Mormons,
Eastern Orthodox or as fundamentalist Christians, Hindus, Jains, Sikhs,
Moslems, Buddhists.

But is conventional prayer effective? Does God really listen to the coach who
circles his team in the locker room praying for victory? Does God actually
hear the big-eyed little girl beside her bed praying for a pony or the
politician praying for political and personal victory? Does God actually
favor the pious guerrilla commander set to attack and wipe out women and
children in a mountain village?

And if so, why do buses carrying innocent Christian children bound for Sunday
school plunge into icy rivers? Why does a misguided missile blow a planeload
of Mecca-bound Moslem Haj pilgrims out of the sky? If God protects the holy,
why does the church's roof cave in and kill the congregants? Why does God
allow a Jim Bakker to bilk his flock of millions and serve less time than a
car thief?

God's plans, say the pious. Unfathomable to us.

More unfathomable, counter nonbelievers, is why an omnipotent deity would
give a damn.

Existential questions have always been with us, and every system of belief
and thought has wrestled with them.

"God is distant," declared one Peruvian villager to anthropologist Johan
Reinhard, "and we must deal with his intermediaries, the mountains." Reinhard
researched Incan sacrificial burial sites and reported his findings in a 1992
National Geographic article, "Sacred Peaks of the Andes."

Are we safe in the hands of our conventional religious leaders?

Maybe. If the pastor doesn't decide to have a shootout with the Bureau of
Alcohol, Tobacco, and Firearms (BATF), or direct us to join him in heaven
with cyanide-laced Kool Aid. If the preacher doesn't require handling
rattlesnakes to prove our absolute faith. If the reverend doesn't decide that
teaming up with the Crips or Bloods is a sound political move. If the abbot
doesn't suggest that setting ourselves afire in an intersection will stop the
war. If the Imam doesn't direct us to fix the world with a car bomb under the
World Trade Center or storm the local American Embassy.

In short�if they aren't charismatic sociopaths.

So many ifs and whys. Some people feel they need something stronger,
something proven that has withstood the test of time. Something older than
Buddha, Jesus, Mohammed, or any of the blow-dried televangelists or bearded,
robed gurus in Rolls Royces.

This is the line in the metaphysical sand. This is where we confront
existential angst.

Here the quaint and somewhat intangible notion of good vs. evil enters the
picture. Here even members of the same church, mosque, or synagogue part
spiritual company.

For those who believe, the forces of ritual and magic-like uranium or
gunpowder-can be used for either positive or negative means.

When those who choose evil really want it badly enough, it's out
there-waiting in the shadows, with all the answers and a lineage of a
thousand names, in a thousand languages, whispered over many thousands of
years. A system nobody knows and everybody suspects and fears-no less today
than when Homo sapiens occupied caves.

Some decide sorcery and black magic work-and have worked for a long time.
Believers say that time's test is the most convincing test of all. If these
things have survived, they must work. And, in the service of existential
angst, of "something's wrong," they do. just as they have for thousands of
years.

Because when "something's wrong," there's only one way to really fix it. You
have to "say the right thing."

pps. 53-57
--[cont]--
Aloha, He'Ping,
Om, Shalom, Salaam.
Em Hotep, Peace Be,
Omnia Bona Bonis,
All My Relations.
Adieu, Adios, Aloha.
Amen.
Roads End
Kris

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