i'm attaching a draft file, although this is confusing to me because i
am used to typing the information over or pasting it in. when i do so
i often add content i have queued in my mind.
this ended up containing some chat about viewpoint parts regarding the term
'boss'.
it didn't get to 'boss pattern', which usually just means the bad-choice part
of our brain.
things don't seem to be going to blockchain on this system atm. unsure why.
[request developed to use offline system to protect from
real-boss a little]
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are you ok?
are u?
... dunno, am i?
i dunno, too busy having issue to tell
man, i'm thinking about that a little, um
it sounds difficult
it's difficult!
it's difficult.
sorry if i have stressed you
haha when i said that i was like
'oh no what if they worry they are stressing me'
haha
:)
i've heard you experience things that are really hard
to describe
omigod it's so true
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what is this .. um ... detailed and
varied way of describing things verbosely and confusingly ......... that is um
.... having a few significant problems?
i infer we're learning to do it better slightly?
we imagine a brain that does stuff for instinctive brain reasons
parts of the brain are charged with making that be true
our goal-doer got flopped, it hurts so bad
part of our brain obsessively and determinedly studies
how to do what we try to avoid, and avoid what we try to do.
it's a galaxy of diverse coping, like a fractal where
you can zoom into each part and it's made of more fractals.
it used to be less complex.
and we try to engage it in less complex ways than that.
there's a lot more than that
sure yo9u have a lot a of detail but i think the above
bit, or something like it
is helpful for understanding the detail we're able to
relate
right now we are failing at the go-outdoors goal
and we value it more than the do-something-productive
goal atm
the value is slightly in dispute, which is making the
go-outdoors goal harder. [its logic was injured / moved-to-protect-it /
moved-to-produce-behavior-result]
some of the things that happened are
more clearly do-good or more clearly do-bad
we're now experiencing a reference/working memory
numbing
something the 'factions' can engage when they're
focusing on a goal and at a loss for how to move it forward
where 'factions' are 'do good' / 'do bad', and 'do bad'
is just do-what-we-are-not-trying-to-do
we call 'do bad' 'boss', and 'do good' 'karl', usually.
^-- this name is sometimes considered a reminder of
what was going on when our issues developed, and who might have been
responsible for some of the parts
in that analogy, 'boss' is guessed to be somebody
influencing facebook and surveilling via other channels, with overlap with law
enforcement and activism disruption
but 'boss' can be different people, like
capitalism in general, or the owner of facebook, or other stuff
a major attribute was that they really demanded
not talking.
stating that boss doesn't exist, and taking
personal blame or finding a scapegoat for anything that happened.
and i mean that's important [shit]!
if people can learn that there's an
internet mafia that enslaves people and prevents them from talking in this
kinda way, it could seem pretty helpful
cause i was really unprepared, and
suffered severely.
i honestly didn't believe such a thing
could be possible.
-- we are not on the blockchain atm --
still not on blockchain.
we value blockchain cause we don't remember
anything! factions.
so um,
this system doesn't seem to record to blockchain, despite ostensibly
using same code
--
we are not sure if this 'boss' is the same 'boss' in the story
the story'jokes' are ways to handle some of our experiences by
countering parts
of them. we expect them to go somewhere helpful, but probably
not immediately
or directly. they contain things that are held as impossible
to refer to internally
which is quite helpful in building norms of holding such things
otherwise.
it's the same 'boss' it's just a different set of who
or what they are / might be, when we imagine what the word might mean.
why are they an individual person?
i think because they dislike it more
when they are one.
hum.
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Boss sits in office puffing a cigar.
'puffing a cigar' is because they act like an organised
crime person
and such people have cigars in the one or two movies or
comics we saw.
Boss blows cigar smoke in the face of worker, and tells them to inhale.
we imagine this as being because boss forces everyone
to do what they
are told, and reinforces it with mind control like
nicotine.
boss is also very very disrespectful and forces people
to accept the
worst disrespect from him as normal.
^- him is because he hates
feminism
the acceptance of disrespect seems also like a ritual
to introduce people
to how things are. like 'everybody has this experience
of utter humiliation'
dunno. don't like accepting humiliation, seems like it
builds a spot in
your mind where some poor decisions are made.
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here is bottom of file for adding more text that might continue
had question, misplaced it, is ok
mcboss, that means 'mind control boss', which has a double meaning
1. boss of mind control
2. the story of mind controlling the boss of mind control, and what
happens
it starts with the torture victims, because of how ai conflict engages
human survival
we added content to the story, so we're putting it online before
bad-part destroys it
