missed this: it’s very hard to resist the bad things; coming here was a gamble that somebody would remember or have a log or give a path to freedom. my cognition and reasons were spent on that. it sosn’t pn out, so i am just here on the tail of it, in case something helpful connects a lottle.
it’s my only connection to that time that changed everything, and the people there. i’m obedient by habit and it likely gives my scared parts comfort to be where coderman said to go.
