Hi all, I'm really getting anxious about this internship. I'm beginning to feel that I'll never measure up. I feel like all the stuff I don't know will count against me in the report to Ivonne and I won't get to go for training. I didn't know about the h for headers command in Jaws and the b for button, c for combo box, d for change to different thing either links or text, e for edit fields f for forms g for graphics, etc. I just had no idea. Yet I was supposed to teach that. It was scary to me to think that I knew more than I did and feel that I had a hold of Jaws commands more than I did and find out a little differently. I was asked if I could compare teach Jaws 10 and how it was different from Jaws 5. I don't remember Jaws 5 and I think I never used Jaws 5. I went from 4.5 to version 6. I was asked if I could install Jaws on a laptop. I've never done that before. I am not altogether sure what is different. I feel that I will get unfairly assessed because the internships usually come after training and this really is beginning to suck. what I know... I know well. the rest of it, I don't know and I just don't want that to count against me. All the stuff that they talked to me about concerning confidentiality makes me feel so anxious that I'll slip up and accidentally say someone's name in a context other than computer class and get dropped. for example. We'll just say student A was sick. I found out that they were sick in the class room. Yet I saw this person again in the student lounge and learned that they were really sick. I started to say how sick student A was and a friend who was sitting near Todd said, "Oh, you know student A?" I thought that I was going to be in trouble if I ever let anything like that happen again. So, am I still teacher sitting in the student lounge waiting for my ride, or am I just Sean hanging out with people? that would have been really good to know. Please pray for me. I know one thing, I don't want to work in an environment where you could get thrown out for a mere mention of the Lord, or someone's name when talking about them and what we talked about in the student lounge. I'm keeping all that to myself. I feel like one slip up and I'm out of here. That's really stressful to me. I need to be in a place where I can learn and be allowed to learn.
I feel like I'd get thrown out for saying, " pray." they don't want me saying things like, "I pray." I think they think I'm going to come after people and really use the internship to convert others to Christianity. There is absolutely no conversation that I'm supposed to have concerning religion. I feel like one, "Thank you Jesus, " could cost me my internship. I'm really finding this stressful. Please pray? thanks everyone. I hope I'm prepared to teach. for some reason I can't bring myself to prepare. I just have this feeling that the internship won't work and they will find some excuse for it not to work. thanks everyone for praying. Blessings, Sean Skype: musicmaker68 windows live messenger [email protected] Email my Verizon account only please. --~--~---------~--~----~------------~-------~--~----~ You received this message because you are subscribed to the Google Groups "Deaf-Blind Inspirational Life Group" group. To post to this group, send email to [email protected] To unsubscribe from this group, send email to [email protected] For more options, visit this group at http://groups.google.com/group/DBILG?hl=en -~----------~----~----~----~------~----~------~--~---
