Dream Title              the past 
Date of Dream            10/06/98

Dream                    I keep having these recurring dreams about my
ex-boyfriend from high school.  I am now very happily married to someone
else, and I live 2,000 miles away from my ex.  We had a very intense, and
usually unhappy relationship off and on for 3 years, we were very wrong for
each other and very much in love.  When I was 15 he got me pregnant and I
had an abortion, something that I regret every day, but at the time it was
the best decision
even though it went against my beliefs.
Anyway, the past week I have been dreaming about him and his current
girlfriend, whom I have never met, but she is close with other friends of
mine that I still keep in contact with.  The other night I dreamed that we
were at our mutual friends' wedding and I wanted to try to be friends and
he didn't.  I looked fabulous, he looked just like he did when I met him
when we were 14.  The next night I dreamed that I met his girlfriend and he
had left her and I was helping her get over him and we became really close
friends. Then last night I dreamed of him again.  He wasn't in the dream
per se, but there was a newsletter in the dream from my high school group
of friends, and in it was an editorial from him stating how much he hated
me for not inviting him to my wedding.  (I didn't invite him in reality, I
was afraid of  and he was bitter - he almost came as my other friend's
date).   
I have these dreams every few months or so, sometimes I am getting back
together with him, sometimes I am telling him off, sometimes we get along
just fine in our new lives.
I don't want to think about this person at all, it just brings back painful
memories.  I never think about him at all if I am not dreaming about him,
but when I do, I can't stop and I feel miserable.  I know I do not want to
have him back, and I have not seen him in over 3 years.
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