Re: [FairfieldLife] Re: England down the drain/TMO privatised?

[Llundrub]

I always was pretty fanatical when it came to the Movement. At first I was a promovement fanatic. But when I found that I could convince people of nothing I changed my mind. There had to be reasons that it was only myself that 'understood' while all other nonmeditators were wrong. I looked into it. Basically I had been disrespectful of others who were as myself, only trying to get by. Those others more than me needed compassion and help in their daily travails because at least I did have a technique for some really quick healing and bliss.   This sounds great, of course I'm actually quite a horrid personality as well and that is I'm sure the reason I wasn't very convincing. But unfortunately my personality was forged in fire, probably in the hells, and I am too stuck in it to be different. I always thought that I would have been a good TM teacher, but they didn't want me. Plus I didn't have the time to commit to being turned down on a whim like they did when they first refused me my sidhis. That is also, like a woman I spent some staff time with at Pac Pal who ended up doing like 9 years of staff instead of three. What devotion she had...   I knew the Movement would never like me, nor would I ever fit the mold.   Last night my rinpoche shook my hand, a time before another rinpoche bumped forheads with me. I don't deserve such respect, but it sure is nice. I feel much glowing contentment for such small kindnesses, like a starving dog getting a small bite.   So I ask, why should I have to feel this way after so many years of practice?  ----- Original Message ----- From: jim_flanegin To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com Sent: Sunday, May 15, 2005 8:48 AM Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: England down the drain/TMO privatised? so first, as I had mentioned previously, the project plan is to enlighten the world. Pretty incomprehensible as it is, no matter who's plan it is. So given that we can't figure it out (all of the discrete tasks and interconnections of the project plan), it becomes an article of faith; a personal choice for each of us whether we accept it or reject it. This then is related to how well we are performing our dharma. Thanks, Jim --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, jyouells2000 <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > Jim, > >   The problem is: After 10 or 20 or 30+ years of TM if they are still > incomprehensible to us, maybe he (MMY) doesn't comprehend them either > or just maybe, the plans are not what he says they are.... > >   "Incomprehensible due to the complexity of the task" is similar to > the logic that is used to justify all kinds of behavior that just > doesn't seem right at all. > > JohnY To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/   To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED]   Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the Yahoo! Terms of Service.