Comment (and thanks) below: --- In [email protected], "Llundrub" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: **SNIP** > ------I used to question why I had worked at 37 jobs in the last fifteen years. Then when I took Bodhisattva vows I realized that I had somewhere decided to make the connection with the most people possible so as to serve the most people possible. > > It doesn't matter whether we individuals think we're just some localized and ignorant people, because we're not. Those of us who have spent many years meditating and who are making the positive aspiration to liberate all others are in fact apostles. We might not act or seem like it just as the sun gets clouded over at times and it seems that the sun has ceased. But it's still there burning through, and when the waters are released then it shines perfectly again. > > It finally made sense to me that I was bringing MIU to the darkest South, within myself. My own ignorant actions were nothing but a reflection of ignorance in general. Of which at least my ignorance was a different ignorance than before. A more liberated and liberating ignorance. At least I knew I was ignorant the whole time. > > Later I started wearing super high powered rudraksha at my jobs. People seeing them would have a cause for liberation. > > I never preached at people and nobody ever knew I was a meditator or anything. It didn't really matter. I didn't want to sully any of the teachings through my own personal problems like drug abuse. But still the connection was there. And at times when I am meditating a person pops into my mind. Someone who may never have encountered any dharma, let alone the Buddhadharma, so another connection. > > It's all about connections and causes. > > And sometimes what seems like ignorance is a new connection, or a different cause than before. > > Often I wondered why someone like me who was so pure at certain times of my life and had such great experiences would also get totally overshadowed again through drugs or sex or some other addiction. > > Those drives are stronger than my own natural desires for a peaceful, lazy existance, and they pull me to new places. New connections, new causes for liberation. > > I used to have a friend and we would blast Sama Veda when driving on Hollywood Blvd. I now sometimes enter the ghetto to visit friends and I am wearing whole malas of 11,12,13,14 sided rudraksha. Another friend of mine and myself once meditated at the "Monsters of Rock" concert. I got busted on a fluke 15 year old speeding ticket and spent two days in prison. I meditated the whole time and some people saw and asked about it. > > Connections and causes for liberation. Am I better than others? Not so as to preach about it. Am I more liberated than others? Quite possibly. > > I would like to thank Maharishi for TM, My Lamas for the Buddhadharma, My wife the Dakini Plus, Neeta at Rudra Center, and Shiva Rudraksha, my main protector. May all be so lucky. May my life be an offering to the most suffering and unhappy that they may find a cause for happiness and freedom from suffering.
**END** Llundrub, thanks for this post. Very sweet and true. For a lot of us, once our intitial involvement with the TMO and Maharishi had run its course, we dispersed into the world to live our lives with whatever degree of true spirituality we had imbibed available to everyone else whose paths we crossed. Just being who we are. I loved the rudraksha story. I have a 20+mm rudraksha kantha from Neeta and I wear that along with a 13mm crystal mala all the time. Not infrequently, when I'm in court I'll get up and walk around while I'm arguing or asking questions and I'll notice these puzzled looks on the faces of the judge or the court reporter or opposing counsel because they rattle and clack against each other as I move. They can't quite figure out what that noise is. No one has ever asked, though. Marek To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
