--- In [email protected], "Llundrub" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > No place left to go. Except here. Hi There! > > ---Hi > > > > It's a beautiful place. Lately I would wake up in the morning and feel this really green joyful feeling. I kept asking my wife if she felt that. It was like the plants all happy for some rain. A natural good vibe. > > Because I have been hollowed out to the core through hard livin, I have always interpreted such feelings as coming from without. > > Then one morning going out to breakfast I asked my wife if she felt that joyous feeling and she said that it's probably what she called optimism. > > OMG! I realized I had never felt optimism before in the whole of my previous life until a few weeks ago. > > However, I still feel that it comes with some rain and with nature. > > Then I read a book on the five elements and it explained how the peaceful deities come in water and earth and the wrathful come in air and the fire. And that the elements have both gross and subtle levels but that those gross and subtle levels are one with us. > > So now I realize that I had just not been pure enough to experience the primordial optimism of the subtle elements. But now I feel them. And it's like Whoa. Natural liberated and happy life, pure and fresh even now, right from the outset. > > Of course it has to do a good bit with the jungle I have planted of exotic trees and vines from all over the earth. Like I have a Caapi vine next to a Yopo next to a Pipal tree next to ten peyotes. And on the other side of the house I have a Neem tree, a Sequoia, two Amalaki trees, two Rudraksha trees (Three faced), a huge lush patch of gotu kola, and a tulsi plant in the SE corner of my lot. > > And more, and more, yes, and more. I love plants. > > Some mornings I wake up and I feel that they love me too. But they are probably just loving being alive and I am picking up on that. Optimism. Eros - the opposite of Thanatos. The will to life versus the will to death. It's good yes?
Yeah, its great! Just like your plants, I've been having some amazing dreams lately. Like the one inside the high security building where the FBI (funny, there's this Thai place down the street with a dessert called F.B.I.- Fried Banana Ice cream) guy in a white shirt and tie is patiently explaining how they do mind control. Very calm, very scientific- replaying and altering your last reality using these yellow conic 'mind drives'. I woke up glad that I didn't have a mind... To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
