--- In [email protected], "Irmeli Mattsson" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > **** > > The reality can be surprising. > > I grew up in an atheist family. I remember my mother mentioning God > only once, when I was sick. According to her I had got the measles, > because I was so evil and God was punishing me. My father occasionally > lectured us about the foolishness of religions. And I agreed with him. > I have never felt a desire or a need to pray. > > In my inner dialogues I was sometimes also pondering of the concept of > God. I ended up not denying God's existence, but saw that this > entity transcends my understanding and therefore I cannot form any > picture internally of God. Therefore He cannot be an object of belief > for me either. > > I also came to the conclusion that if God is the embodiment of Truth, > he cannot expect from me more than I function according to what I > understand to be true, even if that meant the denial of God. > > The irony is that when I at age 16 had my first conscious awakening > shift, I hadn't consciously felt any desire to merge with God. After > this awakening I saw that there is subtle deep intelligence permeating > and beyond everything, which takes care of evolution and also of the > inner growth of us humans. My trying to become something or being > something disturbs the workings of this intelligence in me. If I try > to become something my conscious intelligence cannot stay in tune with > this deep intelligence in nature. > > I saw that life or this deep intelligence accepts me just as I am with > all my defects. Trying to be something means denial and non- acceptance > of what is. I think this applies also to trying to get enlightened. > The basis for growth and transformation is accepting and then > gradually penetrating what is, not by putting your attention elsewhere. > > Whatever your stage of awareness is, just be present and observe your > deep motives, emotions, and energetic states as sincerely and as > truthfully as you can, even if it might feel painful. Don't avoid > feeling painful and heavy emotions. This avoidance is most potent in > creating suffering and stagnation. Also relaxing meditation like TM is > good as it helps to connect consciously to the more subtle levels. > Deep relaxed breathing is useful in helping becoming more aware of > suppressed unpleasant emotions and sensations and transforming them. > > Avoid excuses and using consciously your intelligence to defensive > purposes. Inner growth and evolution is that simple. Sudden leaps to a > higher level of awareness will appear on its own, when you are ready. > Belief in God is not a necessity and in some phases can become an > obstacle too. > > Irmeli
Brilliant and beautiful! What a gift for expression you have! And an excellent guide for dedication to the transcendent value of life. Thank you! To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
