--- In [email protected], "Llundrub" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
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> Good stuff. Two observations on awakening: Before awakening, the
> self burns with the desire to awaken, every action and thought is
> scrutinized with regard to its relationship to awakening. Guilt
and
> fear play large parts in the serious seeker's life, because every
> action and thought is judged as bringing one closer, or driving
one
> further away, from awakening. Before awakening, analysis of states
> of consciousness and 'what the teacher said' become of paramount
> importance in the seeker's life.
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> -----I couldn't agree less. I started awakening sitting at bars
snorting coke, smoking weed, while on methadone, getting
shitfaced. I was wearing a strand of three faced rudraksha with a
one faced guru bead. Shortly before 9/11 the devas started poking
out of everything and I said, "That's it, I must have broken a blood
vessel in my brain." Then they never went away again. So instead of
deciding I was crazy I decided to search the experience out on the
internet, all the while going, "Why me? I'm nothing special! I'm
just a typical dumbass in New orleans who likes to party."
Interesting, your last statement ('Why me...'). I've often felt
exactly the same way. And in the above description of my preawakened
state, I was referring to my inner state of mind and heart. I chose
not to comment on my outer behaviors.
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> I didn't have to do anything, and I mean anything to awaken. Now
I'm glad you used the word awakening because I'm anything but
enlightened. Though I know what it means and will mean, if I make it
there.
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> After awakening, everything is more easily known. Spiritual
> knowledge becomes more like any other knowledge. More balanced. If
> it requires too much effort to know, find out later. Compared to
the
> earlier state, it almost seems as if one becomes indifferent to
> spiritual matters. The interest is still there, and yet finding
out
> is more like floating down a river vs climbing a mountain.
>
> This is true. There's no mysteries in heaven that I can't figure
out within a few moments.
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> But I've found that I have to put more effort into spiritual
practice or I really totally go off the program, and based on what
you know of me I guess you can figure out what that means.
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> It's different for everybody.
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