Whatever, Bob. Poor taste in video choice, only reflects the content of hot men. Judy or Denise would agree? Most men, would not.
Nice try. --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Emily Reyn <emilymae.reyn@...> wrote: > > Oh mon dieu.  Excusez-moi s'il vous plait.  Je suis desolee.  Merci > beaucoup. > > Warning:  Read at your own risk > > I realize this is going to sound kind of schizophrenic but I am retiring my > name and rebranding.  You can call me Emily or Em or Em-dash or whatever > else. I have taken pity on myself and have taken Denise off the front lines > for now - her own name is creating too much angst for her.  She doesn't want > to represent at this time - she's experiencing PTSD and is going to start > EMDR in January (yes, and will be meditating too).  Somebody needs to have > that poor girl's back 24/7 in the real world - she's been having a rough go. >  It occurred to me that that person has to be me.  Imagine that. I > meditated yesterday and visualized her as a child and she is quaking in her > boots.  And, bloodletting all over this forum is really not the right way to > go for her. I'm only going to do it this last time - hopefully.  I have also > let her know that nailing herself to the garage door or prostrating herself > in front of her lawnmower won't improve her image in the > neighborhood.  So, Emily is stepping in to help her.  > > Obbajeeba, I am not holding your poor taste in video that morning against you > in the slightest.  I will say that I much preferred the one with Ginger in > it that Bob sent, care of his wife.  I know you didn't mean to set off such > a reaction in me and it was a pretty good joke, objectively, I do agree.  I > triggered heavily, which is actually a good thing, and I blame it all on the > voodoo (see video at end of post).  I might have even had a wet dream just > prior to the days' long rolling shame attacks that ensued.  Kind of like an > ocean wave.  They are happening a lot these days.  I breathe through them > and allow them to wash over me. It was very kind of you to think of me after > I posted out and I don't want you to feel at all badly.  I'm moving forward > and I do feel lighter :) > > To Bob's wife, I am extremely appreciative of your very fabulous response and > I am letting go of any guilt I might be harboring subconsciously.  I am > definitely not a threat in any way....and I look nothing like Cameron > Diaz...so there is nothing to worry about there either.  Although I do hope > to resemble Maria Bello in a year's time.  > > Bob is a lucky man, which we all know on this forum.  After hearing from > you, he is even luckier than we might have imagined.  I unsubscribed soon > after I posted and didn't see this until now.  I was thinking today that I > should go back and check the thread but I've been too frightened.  I knew I > lobbed one out there and then ran for my marmot hole. I always underestimate > this forum - I was kinda hoping that if I didn't look, it wouldn't be there. >  Again, not so.  > > I am almost convinced, not quite, but almost, on the TM.  Yes, I absolutely > want the benefits exactly as you have described and never have I heard them > so well put, may I add.  But, I'm not buying the whole "value" line of > reasoning at the price its being offered - not at all - my subjective > principles are at play :)  And, the remaining pennies in my piggy bank are > being saved to buy me as much time off as I can get in the coming year.  I > was hoping I could use the Leonard Cohen mantra - the secret of the universe > - if you haven't seen the video I/Emily posted earlier, it's a good one - > last two minutes for the mantra.  And he is so cute when he smiles.  But, > now its out there and off limits.  I keep forgetting. > > I have discovered that a buddhist monk kind of a guy is living several doors > down from where I live who is doing/teaching a meditation group.  I am > getting his number, as for me, I want to believe in my current state of > disrepair that meditation is meditation is meditation and that this practice > will work as well as the next at this point in time.  My head is barely > above water, after all.  Yes, I will pay, but its a nominal fee.  I did my > own thing yesterday for 30 minutes and it totally changed my day, so I know > there is something to this.  Hours of classical music are also helping.  My > expectations are low, so I'm sure they'll be met. > > We all have a story.  I will keep this fairly brief but I was sexually > assaulted 1.5 years ago by get this, a husband. His wife, my primary friend > in the relationship, had left for their island retreat with the kids (one of > them mine) and I sat down with a glass of wine to "shoot the sh*t" with her > husband, who I hadn't seen in awhile, and who was staying behind.  In > hindsight, he must have been drinking heavily throughout the day (he had a > very high tolerance and it was hard to tell). In hindsight, they had invited > me to their wedding anniversary at Teatro Zinzani the year before as they > "weren't enjoying just spending time with themselves anymore."  In > hindsight, he lost his mind.  It was a physical fight and he didn't get what > he wanted at the time.  He apologized, but it was too late.  > > I cut off contact with both of them immediately.  I begged off dinner > invitations. I forced myself through one ski day with my friend because I > knew she had no idea.  I did the George Costanza line..."it's not you, it's > me," which was also true in that I was full into my corporate death spiral at > that time.  I asked myself, "What will be gained by me telling her?"  They > were "do" friends - backpacks, ski trips, camping trips, dinners, > parties...she didn't like to talk emotional anything.  We were always about > the activity - our friendship was very "stereotypical male" in that regard. >  But, I was already pulling away because I was turning into an emotional > wreck and was having trouble pretending or getting the energy up to "do."  > > It would be excruciating; it would blow their marriage apart; it would blow > our families apart; betrayal, pain, and suffering.  Our kids went to yoga > together - why ruin their world?  It would be the end of the relationship > anyway.  I agonized over this, because I am usually pretty direct and I like > to think I am an honest person.  I asked myself as Bob likes to say, accept > seriously in this case, "Was it something I said?" And then, "Was I giving > off sexual energy in some way that he picked up on and thought I wanted > back?"  "Was my vulnerability showing through?"  After all, it is always > the woman's fault isn't it?  She asked for it, after all, didn't she?  I've > known them for 10 years - nothing even resembling this kind of interaction or > conversation had ever occurred. > > So, in the end, I determined it "wasn't on my dot."  It really wasn't my > fault.  I couldn't take on being the one in the middle, bringing their > problems to a focus at point blank range on my forehead. If she had been my > best friend, I would have told the story, because I know she would have > believed me and it would have been about honoring the friendship, first and > foremost. But, she wasn't my best friend in that sense - she didn't own her > feelings - she would have looked for someone to blame - it would have been > me. I chose "situational ethics." So, you see, when that video was posted, I > freaked out - even though it had absolutely nothing to do with any of you at > all.  > > I am living in my "pain body" as Eckhart Tolle would say.  I know it; I have > to stop feeding it.  I have a plan.  I need to keep it light here.  This > post is not that light, but Emily is in charge now and she has better > executive function, so there's hope for the future.  > > By the way, I created my name - "the Reyn part" based on the weather here, > but see now nicely it dovetails with the video Raindrops Keep Falling....In > the end, I really do blame it all on the voodoo.  > > And, luckily for me, I located some speakers for my laptop in my garage. >  And, I hooked them up, and they work. > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jcr9_dCOusk > > > > > > > > ________________________________ > From: obbajeeba <no_re...@yahoogroups.com> > To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com > Sent: Friday, November 18, 2011 5:39 PM > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: Yo Denise > > >  > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWMxX5MGuHI > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, Bob Price <bobpriced@> wrote: > > > > > > > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P_5l6rIUu4A > > > > > > ________________________________ > > From: Ravi Yogi <raviyogi@> > > To: "FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com" <FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com> > > Sent: Tuesday, November 15, 2011 12:57:10 AM > > Subject: Re: [FairfieldLife] Yo Denise > > > > > > > > Nice to hear from "the wife" and glad to hear that you have given up all > > pretenses to reign in Bob and letting fat chance and old age do its work :-) > > > > > > > > On Nov 14, 2011, at 11:14 PM, Bob Price <bobpriced@> wrote: > > > > > > > > >-Denise > > > > > >This is my first and (I hope to God) last post on Fairfield Life. I'm "the > > >wife". I asked Bob to let me send you a post, after he showed me this post > > >of yours. Bob shows me a lot of FFL posts, but the ones I enjoy the most > > >are > > >yours and Judy's. I enjoy your posts because you have a great sense of > > >humor > > >and do not take yourself too seriously, and I admire Judy for standing up > > >to > > >some obvious sexism. > > > > > >Thank you for asking Bob to share your post with me; I appreciate you > > >watching my > > >back. I wouldn't be too concerned though; I'm confident the chances of Bob > > >finding another brunette version of a Cameron Diaz doppelganger are about > > >as > > >narrow as (I'm told) my very narrow ankles. Not that Bob isn't resourceful, > > >he's all of that, but as I'm sure you've guessed, he's getting a bit long > > >in > > >the tooth. I agree with your take on the "after sex" video, according > > >to Bob, Obbajeeba was scraping the bottom of his nitrous oxide tank (I > > >have no > > >idea what that means) and got a bit carried away. The only part of > > >this post that's Bob's is this link, which Bob insists is the link > > >Obbajeeba > > >should have sent. > > > > > >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VDmCZar-MpA&feature=related > > > > > >I have no doubt you and I could keep up with Ginger, but Bob as Fred, > > >maybe on his > > >keyboard. > > > > > >The reason I wanted to send you this post was to do something I've never > > >done > > >before; recommend you get initiated into TM. I'm not a promoter of TM, and > > >unlike Bob, I've only been mediating for a couple of years. I've been > > >following > > >your posts describing some of your recent health challenges. Based on the > > >last > > >few years of meditating, it's been my experience that TM might just be the > > >kind > > >of technique that would help you with the passage you are presently going > > >through. TM is subtle; it's been my experience that it unlocks something > > >that's > > >already there; I like to think of it as a slight edge (no fireworks) like > > >the > > >slight edge top performers have. I don't mean it makes everyone a top > > >performer, I don't believe it does; I believe it opens this edge of a > > >little > > >more energy, a little more clarity and a little more happiness, and I > > >believe > > >that slight edge makes many of the normal challenges life, throws at us, a > > >lot > > >less daunting. I run my own company, and I've been impressed by how it > > >helps me > > >when I should be running on empty. > > > > > >When I started a few years ago, I thought Bob was an idiot for not > > >teaching me and > > >insisting I pay the 4 figures to get initiated. I wanted to know why the > > >hell > > >he won't teach me, but he insisted I go to the TM center to learn (he said > > >he didn't want > > >me to use it against him, if we ever ended up in court:). Since my first > > >meditation, I have not asked him why again. The point I'm trying to make is > > >that if you can manage the fee, I would not hesitate to recommend > > >you pay it. I can't honestly explain it, but for what it costs why mess > > >with > > >the system, if it will help you find in yourself what you need to come out > > >the > > >other side of what you're presently going through. It's also been my > > >experience > > >(with your corporate background, I'm sure you know this as well) people > > >value > > >what they pay for. And lastly, something happened when I went through the > > >puja > > >the day I was initiated, it might just be me but something seemed to happen > > >between my initiator and me that made me feel she's on my side. I > > >recommend you > > >get a female initiator, frankly, some of the male initiators seem a bit > > >odd to > > >me, but then the guy I sleep with seems a bit odd to me at times, so what > > >can I say. I > > >have no doubt; TM works, and it works well. > > > > > >I can't believe I just wrote this. > > > > > >Best of luck. > > > > > >________________________________ > > >From: Denise Evans <dmevans365@> > > >To: FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com > > >Sent: Monday, November 14, 2011 2:03:23 AM > > >Subject: Re: [FairfieldLife] Yo Denise > > > > > >Thank you Bob: > > > > > >That is a great quote. > > > > > >My occipital lobe enjoys everything you post :) àMy frontal and > > >parietal lobes struggle to keep up. àI forwarded the last one for later > > >viewing. à> > > > > >My musical reply is posted at the end of this soliloquy. àà> > > > > >It has come to my attention that my "debt to equity ratio" is high - quite > > >a bit higher than I'm comfortable with. àUltimately, I'm in search of > > >the "win/win" solution for my Self - fantasy/hallucination or no. àI've > > >got some "action items" I need to "own" and "implement". àI'm all about > > >the client, you know, regardless. àIn that my current client is myself > > >or Self, if you prefer, I'm just trying to "bring it on home." à> > > > > >I am "retooling" my strategy with my new client in mind. àI'm pretty > > >sure I'll find that I'm no longer in the driver's seat, but I've done > > >plenty of strategy in my life and I was pretty good at it in my particular > > >line of work, so my Ego insists on trying to help. àAfter all, I had a > > >lot of success - the clients were happy and so was I. àUnfortunately, > > >hindsight tells me, it was all at the expense of my nervous system and > > >other systems I was unaware of at the time. àWhoops. à> > > > > >Nothing was more gut-wrenchingly painful than watching myself > > >self-destruct. àI was perched outside my body and staying objective, so > > >I knew what was happening, but the forward momentum was stronger than my > > >ability to stop it.à> > > > > >I made some critical errors along the way....I forgot to develop an exit > > >strategy, for example. àI remedied this immediately upon realizing the > > >error, but it was too late. I'd taken so many sucker punches and "hits" in > > >the final years that my body/Self said: "No deal, not this time - I'm > > >running the show now. I am removing you as CEO - you are out of touch and > > >doing a crap job - there is no "value added" from your input." > > > > > >Luckily for me, the larger God/universe stepped in and gave me a way out - > > >it only cost $36 million of our taxpayer dollars. àWith my last > > >remaining strength, I dove for door. àI set up the meeting, I cleaned > > >out my desk. àI moved everything I wanted to my car. àMy layoff was > > >in the bag and I had a credible story to substantiate it. àWhen they > > >walked me out, I hugged my manager and thanked her profusely. àAnd > > >then, I went to bed. > > > > > >I am in serious recovery in every respect - I thank you for your part in > > >helping move me from the "living dead" to à"hmmmm.....what is this?" > > >Thank you for helping me get back in my body. àIt actually was an > > >unintended consequence of me partaking in a medicinal variety by myself > > >for the first time since high school. àI did an awful lot of dancing > > >and you did help me stay tethered to the planet that night. I hope it was > > >as good for you as it was for me. àPlease tell the "wife" everything - > > >I'm sure she will understand, and for the fuckin' record, in case anyone > > >on this forum is wondering, I don't mess around with married men ever > > >(Sorry, I just had to say that because of that "after sex" video - can't > > >let that lie there with no response. àWhat, in God's name will people > > >think of me? àI'll be condemned and burned at the stake. àI like it > > >hot, but not that hot.) à> > > > > >Phase II is "on deck." àIt's time to heal. My sister sent me a 2012 > > >Burning Man calendar as a gentle nudge. àI don't know, looks pretty > > >crazy to me. However, she is smarter than I am, so perhaps she knows best. > > >àI took an IQ test today and while I am sure it's inaccurate, I am not > > >as stupid as I thought. àDoes one need a high IQ to attend? àI am a > > >bit of a sandbagger at times. àIn terms of reasoning, that is. Not sure > > >what the larger intellect is doing. à> > > > > >Obbajeeba, if you read this, you have also been an enormous help to me and > > >thank you so much for acknowledging my existence on the planet and finding > > >me pretty men to look at. This is where I am starting. And that line about > > >the crickets was priceless. à> > > > > >I'll be back later, if only to lurk and practice "silence" (Yeah, right). > > > > > >I leave you with my absolutely favorite song from one of the movies you > > >posted a song about (I think). àThe all-time best of George Clooney. > > > > > >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08e9k-c91E8&feature=related > > > > > >________________________________ > > >From: Bob Price <bobpriced@> > > >To: "FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com" <FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com> > > >Sent: Sunday, November 13, 2011 2:45 PM > > >Subject: [FairfieldLife] Yo Denise > > > > > >Denise, > > > > > >IMO, you're one of the real delights on FFL. > > > > > >I thought you might enjoy the following: > > > > > >"The true object of propaganda is neither to convince or persuade, but to > > >produce a uniform pattern of public utterance in which the first trace of > > >unorthodox thought reveals itself as a jarring dissonance." > > > > > >-Leonard Shapiro > > > > > >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=46bBWBG9r2o > > > > > >http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbug5sM1T1w&feature=related > > > > > >http://c-realmpodcast.podomatic.com/player/web/2011-10-26T06_20_22-07_00 > > > > > >àààààààààà> > >àààààààààààà> > > > > àà> > >
