Thanks, Doug-- I appreciate your reply. I have gleaned some very useful information from everyone's replies and have been enjoying meditation again.
--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Buck" <dhamiltony2k5@...> wrote: > > "stevelf", > > This is really a substantial thread about Fairfield. A tip of an iceberg > about Fairfield and the meditation. This kind of question gets talked about > all the time in the Fairfield coffee shop satsangs. People do figure it out > for themselves with a little help, and a lot of people obviously have just > gone on without. There is some good practical advice given here. Usually > these are 'private conversations' separate from real TB'ers but it is nice > that FFL can serve this use too. There is a lot of collective experience > with this in Fairfield. Nearly 40 years. Good post, > > -Buck in the Dome > > http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/message/312419 > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "stevelf" <ysoy10li@> wrote: > > > > I am an MIU grad, "executive governor", 40-year TMeditator with a > > personal mantra dilemna and am in need of some help. Thank you for reading > > the following. It's a bit convoluted and redundant, but only because I am > > striving for clarity... > > > > My brief mantra history: > > I was initiated (for $45.) in 1972 at Goddard College in Plainfield, > > Vermont. A year Iater I was on TTC in Engelberg, Suisse. Then on my 6-month > > course in 1976 I received my 1st advanced technique from Maharishi. Two > > years later I received my 2nd a.t. from Lillian > > (quickest-puja-in-the-world) Rosen at MIU. > > When I received all the TM teaching mantras from Maharishi at the end of > > TTC from Maharishi directly, I was surprired to see that my 1st mantra I > > received from my initiator was different from any M. gave me. When M. gave > > me my first a.t. in '76, all was "remedied" because what he gave me I found > > delightful, smooth-sailing, easy. comfortable, a good fit, etc., and the > > core bija sound of the mantra "matched" what he (Maharishi) had imparted in > > the group of mantras he (Maharishi) had imparted to me at the end of TTC. > > But then when Lillian gave me my 2nd technique, again the pronunciation > > of her bestowed to me seed mantra was different from the group of teaching > > seed mantras Maharishi gave me to teach with. > > I know that different teachers, male and female, were given slightly > > different mantras, also depending on what year they were made initiators. > > > > Here is my specific dilemna: having seen online the mantra charts for > > advanced techniques on several websites over the years, I see the correct > > "spelling" of my seed 2nd tecnique mantra that Lillian gave me... but her > > pronunciation of it is quite different (as I said above) from the group of > > mantras Maharishi gave me to impart when teaching. Advanced technique > > mantras are longer, of course, but it's the seed part I am referring to. > > My subjective feeling is I never liked what Lillian gave me (as an aside, > > nor her demeanor). > > The pronunciation somehow seems "wrong" or contrived, not sleek and smooth. > > I really have no way to have my present advanced technique mantra checked > > other than looking online. I could, and have a bit, experiment with the > > pronunciation to match what I received from Maharishi, but there-in lies my > > dilemna... I could, but am hesitant to, "make up" my own mantra..... to > > reiterate: this ( wrong?? ) mantra I have been using for so many years > > seems flat, contrived, boring, etc.. > > And I have stopped meditating regularly because of this. The old vibrant > > vitality in my meditation practice is just not there any more (again, > > incorrect mantra ?? ). Same with the sidhis that I practiced for so many > > years-- at a certain point my inner feeling was that practicing them felt > > like an inner imposition, a contrived prison of obligatory practice that I > > kept perpetuating, and FOR WHOM was I doing this ? I stopped the sidhis > > because I felt they were not constructive, life-supporting, energetic, fun, > > vibrant, etc. I really only did them forever out of a sense of deference to > > Maharishi's (great seer's) direction... > > > > BTW, the Age of Enlightenment technique I received personally from > > Maharishi on my first 6-month course ( pre-sidhis ) I do find very profound > > and amazing. > > . > > So, thank you for reading ! Please be kind and constructive as I am very > > sincere in my posting this. I have lurked for several years here and have > > occasionally posted. I would really like to see all the disparity I have > > witnessed here coalesce into a positive channel to help me with my > > spiritual dilemna, putting this website to good use. > > > > THANK YOU... > > >
