--- In [email protected], Emily Reyn <emilymae.reyn@...>
wrote:
>
> Dear Share: Â This is an important thing that raunchy said. Â It
is good to collect and keep people around you that validate your
perceived reality. Â I think merudanda is a woman. Â I could be
wrong; I've been wrong before. Â Ha. Â Yes, I will continue to be
compassionate towards you. Â You on the other hand dismissed me
entirely, with this post:
>
> "Emily, I saw all your posts just before I left for Iowa City. Â I
had been planning a well thought out reply. Â But on the journey back
I realized that it doesn't matter what I say. Â Heck, you can answer
all those questions yourself, however you want. Â I don't think my
input will make enough of an impact on you to make it worth my while to
write a reply or worth your while to read it." Â
>
> Yes, I asked you "yes or no" questions. Â I did this because I
could not figure out what you were saying. Â I, of course, had an
idea that you were indirectly slamming a number of people, myself
included, because you were angry and were lashing out
passive-aggressively, but I wasn't sure. Â
gotta love that term, shows up nearly every recent post
> Let me assure you, that anything that you thoughtfully write to me
will have an impact on me.I guess if you like it, or understand it, or
don't feel it's "passive-aggressive", it's thoughtful. If you don't
care for it, then it's not thoughtful. We get a lot of that here. Â
This entire forum has had a tremendous impact on me over the last two
years. Â It does matter what you say Share - there is no need to exit
the conversation with this excuse. Â It is always worth my while to
read it. Â I encourage you to stay and continue to read all the
posts. Â I believe you are missing the larger picture. Â
Compassionately, Emily. Â
>
>
>
>
>
> ________________________________
> From: raunchydog raunchydog@...
> To: [email protected]
> Sent: Saturday, November 17, 2012 3:50 PM
> Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: attempting to heal the brain down through
the ages
>
>
> Â
>
>
> --- In [email protected], Share Long sharelong60@ wrote:
> >
> > Good God!ÃÂ Fledgling love interest?!ÃÂ This has been
raised before and I gave the same answer then.ÃÂ To anyone who
read my posts to merudanda I think it was pretty clear that my crush was
on him.ÃÂ Hello?!ÃÂ The poems?!ÃÂ In fact I once
brought this up to Robin in one of our long exchanges.ÃÂ
> >
> >
> > But about Robin I do sense something from childhood wanting to be
healed in me.ÃÂ Something about having done my best to repair a
relationship and the other person keeps slamming the door in my
face.ÃÂ Yes, it brings up some deep need in me.ÃÂ Will
definitely bring it up with my pastoral counselor tomorrow.
> >
>
> Good idea. One can never get too much feedback from friendly places.
>
> > I'm not sure what is meant by my stalking behavior.ÃÂ Maybe my
repeating myself so much?ÃÂ That has everything to do with my
wanting very much to be understood accurately especially with regards to
my intentions.ÃÂ And especially in the eyes of the reasonable
people on FFL.ÃÂ
> >
> >
> > Last Wednesday I realized that these past 2 1/2 months I've been
trying to understand what happened on Sept 6 and immediately after,
especially with the piling on and Robin allowing that, etc.ÃÂ I've
been trying to understand myself and Robin.ÃÂ When help came my
way first via Lord Knows and later via William and Brahmi, I felt an
immense relief and gratitude to them.ÃÂ Because they helped me
understand.ÃÂ And to feel confident in myself again.
> >
> > None of the other women on FFL have gone through such an ordeal with
Robin.ÃÂ So maybe I shouldn't be surprised by their lack of
compassion towards me.ÃÂ Which btw began right after Sept 6 and
has continued up to today.ÃÂ Of the women, only Emily has
continually expressed compassion towards me.ÃÂ Maybe being a Mom
helps with that.ÃÂ ÃÂ
> >
> >
> >
> > ________________________________
> > From: Robin Carlsen maskedzebra@
> > To: [email protected]
> > Sent: Saturday, November 17, 2012 12:56 PM
> > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: attempting to heal the brain down
through the ages
> >
> >
> > ÃÂ
> >
> >
> > --- In [email protected], Share Long <sharelong60@>
wrote:
> > >
> > > As I said before, I broke ranks when I first got upset with Robin
on Sept 6.ÃâàThen the piling on happened.ÃâÃÂ
And since then there has been one upset after another.ÃâÃÂ
Which Robin seems to prefer to deal with online.ÃâàThat is
also very curious to me.ÃâàAnd that his supporters
especially Judy seem to think that Robin himself cannot deal with an
upset woman!
> >
> > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6voJjexENok
> >
> > You go this deep, Share.
> >
> > > I won't be looking at Judy's or Ann's or Raunchy's
replies.ÃâàBut if any of them bring up a point that one of
the reasonable people think is well, reasonable, I'd be grateful if
you'd bung it over to me and I will attempt to address.ÃâÃÂ
> > >
> > > BTW I won't be on the computer again today until this
evening.ÃâàHave fun!
> > >
> > >
> > > ________________________________
> > > From: feste37 <feste37@>
> > > To: [email protected]
> > > Sent: Saturday, November 17, 2012 8:46 AM
> > > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: attempting to heal the brain down
through the ages
> > >
> > >
> > > ÃâÃÂ
> > >
> > >
> > > Interesting how all the women are going for poor Share's throat:
authfriend, Dog, Wolf, Emily. None of the men are. I wonder why this
should be. Obviously, authfriend and Dog feel the need to defend their
beloved former cult leader, whereas Wolf and Emily just seem to be
spoiling for a fight. Women are very curious creatures. I do not
understand them at all. But one thing is sure: you don't want to piss
them off.
> > >
> > > --- In [email protected], "raunchydog" <raunchydog@>
wrote:
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > --- In [email protected], Share Long <sharelong60@>
wrote:
> > > > >
> > > > > Share replying to Ann's recent posts to Xeno and laughinggull:
> > > > >
> > > > > > > --- In [email protected], awoelflebater
<no_reply@> wrote:
> > > > > I'm not Share but I think it is rude to talk about
> > > > > someone as if they aren't already standing in the same room
with you.
> > > > >
> > > > > Share:ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý I assure you
Ann, no one on FFL is standing in my FF living room with me at this
moment!ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý More relevantly, at this
moment I don't know
> > > > > who is online, so don't even know who is in the CHAT ROOM with
me right
> > > > > now.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý Sometimes when it
seems appropriate I address people directly as
> > > > > I'm doing now with you though I'm guessing that you're not yet
online
> > > > > this morning.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý There
have been a few times recently when it's been
> > > > > appropriate to address Robin directly as when I replied to his
reply to Bill's book.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý Other
> > > > > times I reply to other individuals or to FFL as a whole
especially in
> > > > > the case where Robin seems to be taking a break and I have
something to
> > > > > say.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý Especially
something to say to address the various accusations and insinuations
about me.
> > > > > More importantly, since the first upset with Robin on Sept 6,
I have asked
> > > > > him if we could work out our misunderstandings
offline.ÃÆ'ââ¬Å¡ÃâàAt that time, twice he brought
our exchanges back online.ÃÆ'ââ¬Å¡ÃâàAnd it seems
that he continues to prefer that format through all the upsets that have
occurred since
> > > > > then.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý So be
it.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý I was willing to discuss the
psychological rape topic
> > > > > offline. I've been willing to discuss the CULT issues
offline.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý But if
> > > > > Robin prefers to discuss these matters online, and if I wish
to address
> > > > > public accusations and insinuations about me, then the best
option I see is to reply
> > > > > online.
> > > > >
> > > >
> > > > Well Share, considering the convoluted discussions, often
confusing, downright misleading, and negative, intentionally hurtful
things you've had to say about Robin online for all to see, (I'm certain
Judy could provide links supporting my assertions) maybe Robin's
decision to talk to you online was correct. It seems to me he may have
intuited a tendency of stalking behavior on your part and wanted to nip
in the bud perhaps a fledgling love interest, which he had no intention
of encouraging. Your continued interest in him under the guise of
"helping" him, help only his detractors think he needs, and continuing
to press your case of psychological rape, an utterly bogus fantasy, is
IMO simply deluded stalking as evidenced by your "actions." Maybe it's
time for a vacation from FFLife to heal your attachment to Robin.
> > > >
> > > > > In another post:
> > > > > laughinggull wrote:ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý
Anyway, that's why I think that none of us can say that the Robin
> > > > > of today is the same as the Robin of long ago, because we have
no basis
> > > > > on which to make that judgment without being around him
physically for a
> > > > > reasonable amount of time to witness what I think of as true
*actions*
> > > > > with all the accompanying nuances, body language, etc. etc.
And besides,
> > > > > who can say that Robin isn't laughing his ass off or doesn't
have his
> > > > > tongue firmly planted in his cheek as he types his comments
here at
> > > > > FFL...maybe he's just having a little fun at our expense.
> > > > >
> > > > > Ann replied:ÃÆ'ââ¬Å¡ÃâàI agree that close
physical proximity to anyone is the only way to go if
> > > > > you want to really get to know them. The nuances just can't
be beat if
> > > > > you want the real goods on someone. Just like my horse, I need
to hear
> > > > > them, (smell them!) and watch every little move they make to
come to
> > > > > understand more of what is going on in their person(hood). And
this on
> > > > > top of hearing what they have to say, in person
> > > > >
> > > > > Share:ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý So on what
close physical proximity to Robin are you basing what you say in the
post BELOW?ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý That which occurred
25 years ago?ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý Or your current
cyber interactions?ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý Especially
that part about his being a regular grunt like the rest of us, on what
are you basing that?ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý Even from
his most recent posts I'd say Robin is something other than a regular
grunt.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý I'm sure his day to day
life has its regular aspects.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý
And I too see his regular
humanity.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý However, based on his
exchanges here I see more than regular
grunt.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý
> > > > >
> > > >
> > > > Robin is more than a regular grunt, fer sure.
> > > > http://youtu.be/c55ybIOGEeU
> > > >
> > > > > In addition, I'd guess that as a mature man, Robin's also
aiming to help ease the load of others and love and cherish them, not
only to be eased and loved and
cherished.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý Sometimes IMO Robin's
supporters reply as if he's a helpless little
boy.ÃÆ'ïÃâÿÃâý
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > ________________________________
> > > > > From: awoelflebater [email protected]
> > > > > To: [email protected]
> > > > > Sent: Friday, November 16, 2012 8:15 PM
> > > > > Subject: [FairfieldLife] Re: attempting to heal the brain down
through the ages
> > > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > ÃÆ'ââ¬Å¡ÃâÃÂ
> > > > > --- In [email protected], awoelflebater
<no_reply@> wrote:
> > > > > And as for Robin, he is just a man. He is someone who has
struggled and continues to struggle with the challenges life chucks his
direction. But I think he is doing his best; I do not think he lives
without emotion, fear, attachment, doubts, moments of joy, the ability
to discriminate. In other words, he is a regular grunt like the rest of
us, stumbling his way through his years on this planet and
> > > > > he yearns for something that will eventually ease the load
and confirm he is a soul who is loved and cherished.
> > > > > > >
> > > > > >
> > > > >
> > > >
> > >
> >
>
