--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, awoelflebater <no_reply@...> wrote:
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> --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Robin Carlsen" <maskedzebra@> wrote:
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> > Dear Bill,
> >
> > The essence of the Ten Years was this: when I came down from that mountain
> > I found myself able to see the ultimate weakness or falseness in each human
> > being. *I never saw this before*. So what this mean was that each person I
> > met after being enlightened--other than Maharishi himself--demonstrated in
> > their behaviour a certain awareness of what was untrue or insincere in
> > themselves. It seemed--from the point of view of Unity Consciousness--that
> > each person had this final and definitive flaw, a flaw which was the secret
> > theme of all that they did--but which was hidden from everyone else. And
> > perhaps had not even surfaced completely in the consciousness of that
> > person.
> >
> > No matter: what happened inside my enlightenment was that in seeing the
> > evidence of this contradiction in their very beingness, I was led to
> > believe (by what was creating the context of my enlightenment) that my
> > being able to perceive this infirmity in that person, that in making this
> > known to that person, they could, through their own free will, make use
> > simply of the grace of truth (of that very revelation) to acquire the means
> > to challenge and eventually overcome that flaw. And each person had a
> > signature flaw.
> >
> > Indeed the process through which this weakness was exposed seemed to bring
> > with it a context of prescriptive existential potential whereby that person
> > could begin to take responsibility for this weakness or falseness and begin
> > to overcome it. That is what confrontation was, after all: revelation of
> > the problem, and then, evidently, a context within which to do something
> > about that problem.
> >
> > The means to uncovering and exposing that flaw--*so that every person in
> > the room or theatre could see it for themselves*, see it inside the context
> > of reality, and thus making it seem to be a kind of 'demonically' supported
> > weakness--was through a 'tracking' process, which entailed going through
> > layers and layers of deceit, phoniness, dishonesty, fear, falseness,
> > escapism, avoidance--and then revealing this weakness as essentially the
> > responsibility of that person--inside the drama of creation--to face and
> > conquer. To conquer that distinctive and inimitable weakness would be the
> > qualification to become enlightened.
> >
> > Therefore this was becoming enlightened through a means other than the East
> > only. Even though that continued, as each and every one of us was devoted
> > to Maharishi, and were under the assumption that Maharishi had made me
> > enlightened. Ergo, what I was doing must, somehow have the blessing of my
> > Master, Guru Dev, and the Holy Tradition. Emphatically this was the
> > understanding that every person who was closest to me held as unassailable,
> > inviolable.
> >
> > Now since my enlightenment was a mystical hallucination, it meant that *the
> > context which it gave birth to inside myself*, that too somewhere, no
> > matter how true the process of confrontation and individuation appeared to
> > be (and that process recreated reality, drove everyone into the deepest
> > place one could ever go--and had ever gone), was untrue. And what this
> > meant--in the perspective after The Context was busted by a greater
> > reality--was that this weakness in each person was simply what innocently
> > each person had to do in order to survive as a human being inside the
> > universe given that they were not perfect--and fallen. In other words, this
> > salient and ultimate weakness was not to be confronted--not even to be
> > revealed. I believe this because in not one case (other than perhaps my
> > own!) did this process of 'tracking' ever do anyone any good. The violence,
> > the intelligence, the power, the energy, the drama: that certainly did
> > strengthen all of us; but in terms of what was the objective: 1.
> > overcoming, vanquishing one's signature weakness 2. becoming
> > enlightened--the Ten Years was a fiasco. Each person, as far as I know,
> > remained just what they were before I came down from that mountain about
> > Arosa. Only a much stronger and wiser character.
> >
> > Now where things really went wrong was when the powers which had created my
> > enlightenment--and The Context of the Ten Years--began to make it seem to
> > be as if I were actually seeing individual persons as entities of
> > evil--rather than seeing the person in the context of their problem, their
> > unique infirmity. This is the proof of the evil of The Context and my
> > enlightenment: that the hallucinatory reality of the Ten Years began--after
> > about eight years--to become something else: the declaration of who was
> > good and who was evil. At this point the whole enterprise was doomed. But
> > the reality which governed the experience of each and every person in those
> > Ten Years--this did not change at all--even with this disturbing and
> > terrifying development. It should have; but it did not, because of course
> > that context was under the power of something which was in the final
> > analysis antipathetic to the happiness of the human beings who were
> > trusting in the immense and intricate metaphysical truthfulness of the
> > whole reality.
> >
> > I return to my avowal that I made in my last letter to you: If anyone
> > wishes to meet with me here in Toronto, I can assure that person--no matter
> > who it is--that that person will experience, in my presence, the validation
> > of their own essential integrity and worthiness as a human being--without
> > even getting a single cue off of me which would resurrect that old
> > context--that was born on that mountain some 36 years ago. And it means
> > that disagreements will be just that: disagreements. Not leading to some
> > kind of cosmic interrogation which would bring into question the final
> > honesty of that person. That is, at the level of their very being.
> >
> > This, then, was the essential supernatural skill that was bestowed on me on
> > that mountain: to see into the secret of each human being, and to be able
> > through a very complex and inexorable process to reveal what that secret
> > was--such that all those who witnessed this process could see it inside the
> > reality within which it exists--and this, as you will remember, was always
> > under the aspect of eternity.
> >
> > But each person began to understand how this process was seemingly
> > built-into life itself, and applied--perhaps less elegantly and
> > comprehensively and creatively than I did--that process to themselves and
> > to their friends. The Context, Bill, was never isolated inside the cult
> > leader. It was very much known and experienced to be *inside life* itself.
> > We--all of us--had only one authority: our own perceptions, our own
> > experience. I had no authority whatsoever--separated, that is, from the
> > living drama of the beautiful and cruel theatre of that whole context. I
> > was as much a victim of that context as you were--The only difference being
> > that I had to wait to be terrified and humiliated until after it was over.
> > I believe your book, from all that I could understand from almost three
> > hours I spent looking through its pages, missed out this very important
> > theme.
> >
> > That said, I maintain that I have the proof--and so does someone else--that
> > I was more naive, deceived, unintelligent, non-objective, and distorted
> > deep inside myself than any person whom I confronted.
> >
> > Robin
>
> The ante has been upped.
> It becomes harder and harder to react.
> The past, while staying relevant, loses its ability to inspire bitterness,
> suspicion, doubt. Courage, while ripping something apart, simultaneously has
> the capability of knitting something together.
> What was lost can be found.
> What was found can be perfectly lost.
> Self knowledge might cause revelation but it is wasted on the blind.
> Recognizing something as an offering could make all the difference.
> Willingness to be proven utterly wrong is the opportunity to be utterly right.
> Abandoning a well worn jacket might seem like loss until you realize it was
> weighing you down.
>
>
Beautifully, said, Ann. Thank you.
