--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Robin Carlsen" <maskedzebra@...> wrote: > > Don't mind me, lg. I just got carried away in my desire to make some kind of > impression on this Saturday. > > I think you an exciting, interesting, questioning, compelling person--all > that I said in that previous post I now disavow. It was untrue. Every word of > it. > > I don't know what came over me--perhaps some ontological insecurity in the > face of your persistent flashes of brilliance and love. > > I just love your self-confidence--and I am envious of it. How did you achieve > this? TM? > > I find I have hated myself too much in my life to ever acquire that level of > self-confidence you exhibit on FFL. > > I think the death experience should be a breeze for you. > > Think about me from time to time, will you do that, lg? > > Perhaps praying for me would help. > > I am a loser.
You are also asking me questions and I hear you, I answer that I cannot answer, you must find out for yourself. Sit a while dear son, Here are biscuits to eat and here is milk to drink, But as soon as you sleep and renew yourself in sweet clothes, I kiss you with a good-by kiss and open the gate for your egress hence. Long enough have you dream'd contemptible dreams, Now I wash the gum from your eyes, You must habit yourself to the dazzle of the light and of every moment of your life. Long have you timidly waded holding a plank by the shore, Now I will you to be a bold swimmer, To jump off in the midst of the sea, rise again, nod to me, shout, and laughingly dash with your hair. -Walt Whitman > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "Robin Carlsen" <maskedzebra@> wrote: > > > > There is a perfection to what you are oblivious to in all your posts, lg. > > > > Your problem is this: You have lost the capacity to sense what you just > > might be anaesthetized to in your apprehension of what is going on. > > > > It's starts with your conception and experience of yourself: your self is > > way too known to yourself to have been created by something other than > > yourself. > > > > You have a metaphysical complacency--unconscious as this is--which always > > deprives you of any kind of real terror or beauty in the form of a > > self-discovery. > > > > Look at the reflexive way you are processing this very post of mine: there > > you have exactly what I am trying to tell you: You subvert any chance of > > being in the unknown, and therefore your responses are always tediously > > predictable to your soul--which is finding you a bore. > > > > The malady of the quotidian laughinggull. > > > > I knew you would enjoy this. > > > > And remember: the first order of response is to defend yourself, find a > > rejoinder, mount some counterattack. > > > > Never to let something get into you which will or might alter your > > experience of yourself and reality. > > > > Don't mind me, laughinggull: I compensate for my congenital mediocrity by > > trying to be much more interesting and provocative than I have a right to > > be. > > > > My life is just very dull. > > > > Forgive me. > > > > <snip>