---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, <awoelflebater@...> wrote : M: I did miss what you wrote before, so thanks for repeating yourself a bit. I always enjoy your nature connection writing. I still have a bit of the meditation junky in my in that I can enjoy 15 minutes just sitting in silence with eyes closed. But you live in a more easily accessed natural environment where IMO you are plunged into everything meditation gives you just by walking out your door. For me I have to plan immersion like that. I get a taste of it by feeding birds on the balcony I grow herbs in pots. But nothing compares to the kind of natural world you are able to soak in. Great life choice. I would like to pull that off someday myself.
Meditation has the quality in its essence that I reach in the middle of the Potomac on my kayak, so I am glad I can rappel inn regardless of circumstances. My usual time is when I have been driving to a gig around our wretched Beltway video game death challenge. It is really great to be able to close my eyes for a few moments and then let it all go so that I can perform from a more flowing version of myself than the teeth clenched guy who has made it through the gauntlet. But again your life choices have shielded you from that. I need an urban market to support my life in the arts right now. There has to be a lot of cream in an area for a kitty like me to get enough to live on. Thanks for articulating what I sense are some excellent life choices on where to live and how to really enjoy it. ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, <curtisdeltablues@...> wrote : ---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, <awoelflebater@...> wrote : Curtis writes (in part): I figure I am as enlightened as I need to be to pursue my own goals and the self chosen purpose for my life. Hard to get me excited with promises of more inside. Whatever internal state I have seems to do the job nicely, the bigger task of my life is actualizing it in creative work out here. That requires eyes open. I couldn't agree more. M: It does sound like this is how you are living these days Ann. Or maybe you went through MIU with more of this perspective than I did and it just took me a while to figure it out for myself. I don't know about that. I was a pretty naive twerp back at MIU. But I do know that what you wrote in that small but significant paragraph speaks completely into where I have found myself living my life, and not so much through choice but through a sort of natural inclination. I don't know if you read some of my posts with regard to this lately - about lack of guru, about my solitariness (by choice) as a young person taking long walks in the damp and the rain and the winter and through forests and finding myself happy there, breathing deeper there. There is so much in the world, from the dirt under my feet to the mutt or two lying at my side ready for some sign of love given or ready to give love back, that I feel I would be missing out with eyes closed. There is just so much goddam cool stuff everywhere and to miss even one hour of a chance to find out exactly how cool is reason for regret in my world. You know, we carry around this supposed infinite aspect of Being within us all the time, my philosophy is take that and combine it with what is going on in the world that we inhabit and see what results. For me, sitting with eyes closed is too much an indulgence in some way, too self centered. Take the awareness out there and take a chance, even if it means you fall on your face or crash through the sliding glass door. Propping oneself on one's derriere for hours at a time thinking about nothing is just not what this body was really created for, IMHO.