What happened to the guy who said that the conversation was over from your side? I guess you are seeking some closure you haven't gotten yet. Let's see if I can help.
---In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, <no_re...@yahoogroups.com> wrote : You claim you produce art. M: I claim that my music is my art. I make living as a musical artist. Because you erroneously conflate this with me saying I make life changing, ground breaking, masterful, mind blowing, art you have contrived something to criticize me for beyond offering your personal opinion about a video you saw. I simply say that this is MY art. It is how I represent my inner life into a form of sound that is shared with others. The people who pay me to perform it and who buy my CDs like it, I acknowledge that you have weighed in that you don't like the videos you saw of my performance, and most people say :" Who?" N: I claim you produce noise M: What aspect of this point do you think I have missed? I get it, you have an unfavorable opinion about a video you saw. Check. Message received. You seem to be looking for a different outcome than me recognizing your opinion. Do you think perhaps I might use your opinion to stop working in this field? Do you think with your feedback I will change my musical focus, take up the violin perhaps? I have enjoyed this chat as a writing prompt for considering this public job I do. What you don't seem to realize, as you strive to influence me with your opinion, is that before I ever stand in front of other people to judge my art, I have already spent countless hours passing the audition of my toughest critic, me. Any performing artist spends 99 per cent of his or her time alone mastering their art to their own satisfaction. I play the way I like, that is why I am at peace with people who don't like it. Of course I don't usually hear from them so this has been a bit of an opportunity for reflection and I thank you for that. And despite your persistently curmudgeonly view of my work, I get a lot of positive feedback because I put on excellent shows. I work hard at it like most conscientious people in their jobs and I get the job done. Performing is a weird line of work in that your job performance review is simultaneous to you doing the job. But even if audiences took your POV and rejected my music, I would still be playing it this way. I would just not be getting paid for it! Like most people with a desire to express themselves through art, I would only perform for myself and whatever girlfriend I was torturing with my music at the time. The positive or negative feedback from other people doesn't change an artist's need to express their inner life the way they do. You don't seem to understand this fact about artists. So instead you are caught up in a world of thinking your harsh statements should affect me in some way. Art doesn't come from that place you can reach with your words. It isn't sustained by people appreciating what an artist produces. Artists live in the world beyond all the rise and fall of outer opinions. Many great artists were only appreciate after their death, Robert Johnson included. He was not popular in his day. He was struggling till the day he died. That is one of the many reasons I devote my life to bringing the gift of the arts into schools. It is a gift of self expression that can infuse a life with meaning and beauty. So I accept your opinion, but reject your view of art as an elitist activity for a certain few who are deemed (who deems them again, you?) worthy of using the word art. You are on the wrong side of the hater fence Nabbie. Not about my music, you are welcome to your judgement, but about the concept of how the activity of producing art at any level enriches the human spirit. It exists way beyond the ability for you to influence. It would enrich your own life if you could step out of the judgmental cage of your greatness-or-nothing view. N: and that your ego is out of control. It's not complicated. M: Here you are just being silly and trying to be mean. It is complicated. I have a realistic view of where my artistic contributions fit into the history of my genre. Do you know who is the most humble concerning their own musical talent and Robert Johnson's greatness? The guy who plays his music every day with respect and wonder that such an artist might be forgotten in this generation.