Here's your conclusion, btw.  (below)  Here's my conclusion, fwiw. I recall 
reading her book a long time ago, and being quite inspired by it.   The 
spiritual path is not fun and games.  It is fraught with pitfalls and tests, 
and plenty of self doubting.  And, it is also not understood, in the least, by 
modern psychology, or western medicine.  So, it is easy to ascribe spiritual 
experiences as the psychotic episodes of an unbalanced person.  That's not to 
say, that becoming messed up mentally is not a possible outcome of being on the 
spiritual path, because, of course it is. But the serious seeker will navigate 
the obstacles and challenges and tests, and arrive at a place that has been 
written about and described, over thousands of years, as enlightenment, or 
growing enlightenment.  If it is in your interest to discredit the spiritual 
path, and assign spiritual experiences as so much weird activity of the brain, 
well, be my guest.  


 Conclusion The supposed experiences of enlightenment are so close to psychosis 
that Suzanne had a hard time deciding if she was enlightened or psychotic. 
Similarly gurus, psychologists, and psychiatrists had difficulty assessing 
Suzanne; some thought she was enlightened.
 I think that a state of enlightenment does not exist. However there are 
altered states of consciousness that make people think that they are 

---In, <myenlightenmentdelusion@...> wrote :

 Suzanne Segal spent much of her adult life trying to figure out if she was 
enlightened or not. 
 At one time, Suzanne Segal was a teacher of Transcendental Meditation. My wife 
knew Suzanne when she was a TM teacher and was envious of her charisma and 
 In childhood, Suzanne had moments of psychological detachment and “vastness” 
which would scare her.
 Suzanne experienced an emotional trauma on her TM-Sidhis course when she 
received a letter from her fiancé that called off their engagement and informed 
her that he was going to go on the Purusha course. Purusha is the celibate 
monk-like program of the TM organization.
 After she learned the TM-Sidhis, she asked Maharishi Mahesh Yogi why when 
transcending she sometimes experienced great fear as if she was going to die. 
Maharishi laughed and told her not to worry and to just let go.
 Unhappy with her experiences and with the direction of the TM movement, 
Suzanne soon fled from the TM organization, from TM knowledge, and from the 
practice of TM and the TM-Sidhis.
 In 1982 while getting onto a bus in Paris she had a major shift in awareness 
and lost her sense of self. Since she understood the witnessing experience of 
Cosmic Consciousness as described by Maharishi, she sometimes described her 
experience as witnessing. However, at first, she was having a hellish, fearful 
experience so she couldn’t reconcile her experience with Cosmic Consciousness.
 At the urging of her brother, Suzanne met with another TM teacher who had 
announced his own enlightenment but was actually having his own mental health 
crisis. The blind leading the blind is an apt statement. The “enlightened” TM 
teacher at first sensed a high state of consciousness in Suzanne and thought he 
could help her. Weeks later their relationship ended when he stated that she 
was evil because she was Jewish.
 As time passed, Suzanne was able to function with seeming normalcy although 
she still did not have a sense of self. She completed a Ph.D. in Psychology in 
1991 and continued to research her own condition.
 Suzanne consulted with various psychologists and psychiatrists over the years. 
Though she was told by one that she had Depersonalization Disorder, she did not 
think it was a perfect fit because she was able to function normally in 
everyday life despite the loss of her individual self.
 She also consulted with Buddhist teachers in California. Buddhism cultivates 
loss of ego, and some Buddhist teachers congratulated her on attaining moksha.
 About 1994 Suzanne experienced another shift in consciousness in which there 
was a sense of unity between herself and the world.
 In 1995, Suzanne’s story spread. She was reluctant to act as a spiritual 
teacher, but she agreed to meet with friends of her book editor. Within a few 
months of subsequent gatherings, several hundred people were attending meetings 
to hear her story and to ask her questions.
 Suzanne’s autobiography, Collision with the Infinite, came out in 1996. She 
began training therapists and continued weekly gatherings for dialogues with 
spiritual enthusiasts.
 In late spring 1996, she began having intense experiences of vastness which 
disrupted her life and exhausted her. In fall 1996, Suzanne recovered 
experiences of childhood abuse and was going through counseling treatment.
 In early 1997, Suzanne’s mental faculties quickly deteriorated. Doctors 
discovered a malignant brain tumor which they removed. Suzanne refused further 
treatment and died on April 1, 1997 at 42 years old.
 Wikipedia has a good summary of Suzanne’s amazing life at 
 The above paragraphs are excerpted from one of my blog posts. To read my 
conclusion on Suzanne’s enlightenment, go to

  • ... 'My Enlightenment Delusion' [FairfieldLife]
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      • ... 'My Enlightenment Delusion' [FairfieldLife]
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        • ... Bhairitu [FairfieldLife]
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