--- In [email protected], "markmeredith2002" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > From "Adventures of a New Age Traveler" by Mariana Caplan > > "Jake, if we are going to hang out together I need to feel like you're > really here with me and not always so detached," I opened the floor. > "But who is the `you' who wants to hang out with the `me'?" > "I am the me and you are the you!" > "There is no difference, so we can never really be apart or > togetherit's all the same." > "You're full of shit." > "But who do you think is the `me' that is full of shit?" > "I think it is YOU!" > "Who's getting angry?" > "I'm getting angry." > "Look into my eyes, what do you see?" > "You." > "Look more deeply. Now what do you see?" > "I see a lonely man who thinks he's enlightened." > Extremely frustrated and teary-eyed, I walked away and sat on a log > by the stream trying to figure out why it was so important to me to > try to get through to him. > "Why did you come all the way over here to cry?" he sat down beside > me, fully believing in his own innocence. > I looked at him with that end-of-the-relationship look in my eye. > "Because there is no one there to hold me if I cry, and I'd just as > soon cry alone than cry with nobody." > And in this way came and went a couple more Zen boyfriends. Yet in > the end, I blame not them but myself. For as distant, arrogant, > righteous and terrified as they were, it was I who sought them out, I > who tried to open them in the ways I wanted them to be open, and > ultimately I who recreated my childhood pattern of not feeling loved > by eliciting the same response in my relationships. I could have just > dated a nice Jewish boy after all. >
Reminds me of the proselytizing many of us went through upon discovering our renewed selves through TM: "c'mon, you've *gotta* do it, and save the world!"...only to realize later the world we so desperately wanted to be saved was entirely of our own making... Also points up the (inhales sharply) Paradox of Brahman, where unity and diversity are experienced simultaneously in all objects of the senses, and the problems we encounter if we insist on just one perspective or the other. ------------------------ Yahoo! Groups Sponsor --------------------~--> Join modern day disciples reach the disfigured and poor with hope and healing http://us.click.yahoo.com/lMct6A/Vp3LAA/i1hLAA/UlWolB/TM --------------------------------------------------------------------~-> To subscribe, send a message to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Or go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ and click 'Join This Group!' Yahoo! Groups Links <*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/FairfieldLife/ <*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: [EMAIL PROTECTED] <*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/
