The thing is, I've come to realize that none of these discussions
about Maharishi's individual personality and behaviors, taken on the
relative level, are important to me.
Yes, it's obvious by the length and recently, frequency of your posts, that none of this matters to you at all. Good.
CONCLUSION ABOUT LABELING
So when people try to paint me with their broad brush of "true be-
liever" and "insider" and "intellectually weak devotee and ignorer
of the facts" - it just makes me laugh and laugh. The things we
try to project onto others is often a mirror of what we don't want
to admit to in ourself, or fear in ourself, or censor in ourself.
Lovingly I say to you, the next time you call someone a "true
believer", see if you aren't just as much a "true non-believer" -
just as stuck, blinded by your own emotional traumas, etc. The
next time you call someone an "insider", see if you aren't resent-
ing being an "outsider" - unloved, unbelonging, abandoned. The
next time you call someone an "unthinking, deluded bhakti", see
if you aren't an over-thinking believer in individuality, afraid to
let down your guard, to open up your heart. These labels only re-
veal your own doubts and cynicisms.
Is mood-maker OK? How about professional windbag?
In my next post I'll address self-doubt and cynicism, and the role
of profound trust and surrender, not as the negation of intellectual
inquiry, but as the true foundations for alert and meaningful ques-
tioning.
That's the only kind of questioning we have here, Michael, :)
