--- In [email protected], Jonathan Chadwick <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > > I think right now the Self is sucking us back in. I've missed my program many, many times over the past 30-something years but lately I can't seem to wait to get back in there because the energy is so incredible.
I went for years where the only good meditations I had were in groups, needing the fullness of the group to feel that saturated silence. By myself it just felt thin, and chock full of thoughts. I don't know when that changed- it was gradual- but now there is that sense of depth and fullness when its just me, even when meditating in odd places like the front seat of my car. So much so that my desire to meditate in a group has long since vanished. The other thing I've noticed, as the year changed over to 2007, is a sense that the atmosphere seems clearer and cleaner. The picture I keep having is that like a tree with many of the smaller branches cleared out, or a river delta with fewer tributaries. The mental environment is just cleaner somehow. And I haven't been looking or expecting anything- I will pretty much deal with whatever comes along and am not one to place my happiness into the future, or sense things taht aren't there. Just curious if anyone else has innocently become aware of such an atmospheric change, coming into the New Year?
