--- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "authfriend" <[EMAIL PROTECTED]>
wrote:
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> --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "jim_flanegin" <jflanegi@>
> wrote:
> >
> > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "authfriend" <jstein@>
> > wrote:
> > >
> > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "nablusos108"
> <nablusos108@>
> > > wrote:
> > > >
> > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, "authfriend" <jstein@>
> > wrote:
> > > > >
> > > > > --- In FairfieldLife@yahoogroups.com, off_world_beings
> > > <no_reply@>
> > > > > wrote:
> > > > > >
> > > > > > Wow, what kind of born-again fanatic goes to all the
> > > > > > the trouble of compiling something of so little
> > > > > > significance?
> > > >
> > > > Good point ! This Barry fellow seems to be oneofakind.
> > > > >
> > > > > I think he may be having a breakdown. He's always
> > > > > had periodic freakouts, but I've never seen him in
> > > > > such a manic, irrational tizzy.
> > > > >
> > > > > Usually when he senses that he's losing it, he
> > > > > takes a little "vacation" (vowing never to return,
> > > > > but of course he always does). This time he
> > > > > doesn't seem able to recognize that he's gone round
> > > > > the bend. Not a good sign.
> > > >
> > > > It's alkohol, no ? Barry seems to enjoy the cheap french
vino...
> > >
> > > He's never been able to handle challenges to his
> > > opinions; his freakouts typically occur when he's
> > > been getting more opposition than usual. This time
> > > I think there's just been too much of it for him to
> > > deal with. Whether alcohol is exacerbating things,
> > > who knows?
> > >
> > I don't know if that's an accurate assessment, though you've
been
> at
> > this awhile. The reason I bring up the question is that Barry
goes
> > out of his way to *generate* opposition, so it seems odd that he
is
> > then not able to handle it. What an odd thing to do, if true.
>
> There's all kinds of conflicting motivations
> involved, I think.
>
> My sense for a long time has been that there's
> a major part of him that believes he's worthless,
> which is why he puts on such a huge phony act
> and erects so many layers of defenses, pretending
> to be someone he isn't.
>
> People who are convinced deep down that they're
> worthless may subconsciously seek to *validate*
> their sense of worthlessness, especially if it
> was formed early in life. Barry's smart enough
> to know that a lot of what he posts is total
> nonsense, but he does it anyway. And he lies about
> stupid things that are easily documented.
>
> You may have noticed that he rarely addresses
> criticism of himself directly. He doesn't defend
> himself, he simply counterattacks.
>
> There's another part of him, also deep down, that
> quite reasonably rebels against the first part's
> conviction that he's worthless, but he doesn't
> have the confidence to let that part show. He
> has to dress it up in fancy costumes and makeup
> before he can actually face the audience. Doing
> his I-don't-care act while throwing his weight
> around tends to pacify the rebellious part of
> himself, while it generates enough criticism to
> validate the I'm-worthless part.
>
> I think he manages to maintain a precarious balance
> between these conflicting parts of himself most of
> the time, but every once in awhile the balance
> tips a little too far, and he freaks.
>
> I'm sure Dr. Pete will appreciate my armchair
> analysis here. ;-) I hasten to add it's not
> informed by any study of psychology; it's just my
> intuitive sense of the emotional dynamics involved
> based on 12 years of observation.
>
I'm speechless.
