Namaste Swami Siddhananda, > > *It gives great calm (albeit currently insulated by absolute terror) > to have watched "you" enter the Lotus never to return. The words > spoken swaddle this one in comfort... walking firmly (but slowly) in > Faith now, since there is no other option.
S Yes, keep going, let go completely into the experience which will dissolve into pure awareness - for you have never been separate from this. *It is like being lost at > sea with no raft, no life jacket, no help in sight... nothing to > keep this one afloat. S It feels this way because all supports are being pulled away until it feels like you will cease to exist - breathe and relax, let whatever needs to explode do so. You will not go anywhere, only naked awareness will remain which is what you are right now minus the attachments. * Eventually, the legs will tire and that dark > ocean I am floating in will overcome. S But there is nothing to overcome, this is the great cosmic joke - there is nothing there only a dream shadow... *However, no "one" will return > to the surface. Only the Ocean will remain. S The ocean of universal awareness which is what you are right now and have always been - just have imagined yourself to be a separate wave moving to it's own rhythm - When this little wave realizes the ocean, it is a joy - there are still waves of thought and movement, but it is not seen as separate, the vision is whole and complete and remains that way - the same consciousness - one-self..... Lost at sea, > Sarojini It is my heart prayer that you realize yourself (what a funny thing to say how can you ever be anything but yourself - these things are so funny aren't they?) Pure sky awareness IS 0 Swami Siddhananda
