Nina, I have been reading about your struggles with Gracie and so sorry that you lost this precious baby. She was so lucky to have you!!!! She really, truly was. She isn't far away from you. I believe this with all my heart. She will always be with you. My prayers are with you. God Bless.
Faye
Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote:
Thank you Mary Christine, and thank you to everyone that has been there
with us throughout our journey together. Your support has meant the
world to us.
Grace is free now. She was more than ready to go, she was anxious to
go. She knew two days ago, I knew yesterday. Thankfully she didn't
seem to suffer too much in her last days, just very tired, very ready.
I'm glad it was our beloved Dr. Ortega that helped her across. She
never left my touch and I spoke to her the whole time. It was gentle
and peaceful, Dr. Ortega was kind and considerate, just like we knew she
would be. There was no trouble finding a vein in her back leg.
Blessings to those who know what they are doing. She even purred when
we entered the exam room. She had been pulling away from me these last
couple of days. That may have been the hardest aspect of her passing,
that while she was still here she was already breaking the ties that
held her to this world. I began mourning her two days ago when I knew
she would never again jump gaily in my lap. Never again be my "heart
warmer". I was asking her to let me warm her heart now, let me get her
heart chakra spinning, as she'd done for me so many times. I thought
that was never to be again. When we sat peacefully waiting for the
doctor and the gurney, she gave me the most wonderful gift. She
stretched herself out on her back in my arms and luxuriated in my
scratching her neck and her chest. I am so grateful that she chose to
be my heart warmer one more time, that she came back to me before she
had to finally leave her wonderful little body behind. Bruce and I have
just buried her in one of her favorite spots, a spot that she would sit
and watch and listen and nap for hours. It was so hard to let go of her
perfect little body for the last time. Because, you see, it was
perfect. I told her that all the time. That she was perfect, just the
way she was. I wouldn't change a thing about knowing her and loving
her. She has been an incredible joy in my life and she always will be.
The first time we almost lost her she was only 5 mos old. Gracie has
trusted me to decide what was best for her, she has been my willing
partner in trying to find a way to help her stay. It was time to trust
her, she knew what was best. We were partners, we were friends, she was
my girl and she welcomed me as her mommy without fur. I thank her for
her gifts to me and for the lessons we learned together.
Much love,
Nina
TenHouseCats wrote:
>oh, nina--
>
>i'm so sorry. this is the first time i've had the computer up in more
>than a day--glorious thunderstorms all day yesterday, so i believe
>that grace is at the bridge as i write this.
>
>all GLOW to her to find her way safely, and to heal your heart...
>
>i really liked the illusion of a great heart being able to break time
>and time again, and still have room to love again. someone said once
>that the pain we feel when they leave is their little claws digging
>their permanent, forever place in our hearts.
>
>i've done things every way there is--holding on too long for ME,
>rather than for them (i don't do that anymore, tho it's "easier" in
>ways to do so), having the vet come to the house (my preferred way
>when the cat needs my help to cross), rushing a kitty to the emergency
>vet at 4 in the morning when they are clearly suffering, holding their
>paw as they consciously let go, holding them in my arms, against my
>heart, even after their spirits are long gone but they haven't quite
>been able to leave their bodies behind; i've begged them to let go and
>go home, i've begged the universe to let them stay with me, i've
>wanted to scream to the vet, "no! what if i'm wrong, what if it's not
>really time?," i've gone to get the valium to help them relax only to
>return to find they'd gone on without me; i've held them in my arms
>when that's what they seemed to want, and let them be alone when
>that's what they wanted--tho that is the HARDEST for me, to respect
>their need to transition in their own space; i've done mouth-to-snout
>resuscitation....
>
>i have learned to listen to them, knowing that they are much wiser
>about the cycles of life than i will ever be. i make sure they know
>how much i love them, that i will ALWAYS love them, i thank them for
>sharing their lives with me, and i tell them they are free to go when
>it is time. i ask them to tell me if they need my help; i talk to them
>about their kittenhoods, and how much fun we've had together, and how,
>at the bridge, they will have young healthy bodies again and can do
>all the things the current body can't do any longer... . i DO believe
>that euthanasia is often the final gift that we can give them in
>return for all they have given us--the most profound thing i've ever
>been told is that it's better to send them home one day too soon than
>10 minutes too late. sometimes the act of leaving the body behind is
>soft and quiet and gentle, sometimes it is not--when it is clear that
>their time here is at an end, i cannot let them suffer.
>
>i just have nothing more to say; i ache for you, and rejoice for
>grace's freedom from pain.
>
>MC
>
>--
>MaryChristine
>
>AIM / YAHOO: TenHouseCats
>MSN: [EMAIL PROTECTED]
>ICQ: 289856892
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