Oh Julie, I'm so sorry you've lost your sweet Mandy. We do all know
how
excruciatingly difficult that empty space left by our loved ones is to
bear. How the things they were so much a part of, like reading and
fixing
meals, even the time of day when we'd give them their meds is difficult
to get through. When I lost Grace, it took me so long to clear her
remedies from the fridge. The finality, (at least on this plane), is
so hard to face. It's seems especially hard when we've spent so much
of our
energy, love and
time doting on them, caring for them, struggling against all odds to
find answers that will help them stay, just a little bit longer. No
matter how we lose them, their absence is like an open wound. Time is
not the only element that is
necessary to help you and your family to heal, but no matter how
difficult the processes, no
matter how long it takes, it will begin to heal. We are still here,
there are others that need us, we have no choice but to move on. We
keep our Angels in our thoughts, and in our hearts, they never really
leave
us. Even though the wound does heal, our lives are never the same,
they've left their mark on our hearts with their love. Someday, you'll
run your finger against that
scar and even if you
continue to shed tears, they'll be accompanied by a smile. I believe
that day is a happy one for our lost loved ones. The day when we can
look back over the memories with more gratitude than grief, with
more joy than pain, the day when we can forgive ourselves for not
having the power to make them 'all better', is a glorious day for our
babies in spirit.
You've sent me so many hugs. Now, I'm sending them to you. Please
know you and your husband, Mandy and Wink and all your babies are in my
thoughts and prayers. I'm so sorry for your sorrow. You are not
alone, we do all understand. Think of yourself surrounded in love,
because you are.
Add our tears to yours until the pain is finally washed clean, much
love to you,
Nina
Julie Johnson wrote:
Dear Friends,
Mandy is gone. She was not doing well Tuesday night (bleeding
from the mouth and unable to eat) and I made the decision to end her
suffering. I called my husband and he left work right away to come
home. We held her and stroked her and ultimately she began to purr.
She never cared to be held; she liked to pick the spot and sit ON you,
but she did curl up in her blanket and let us hold her. We were with
her and holding her and talking softly to her and she had one paw
curled over my finger when she left us.
It's been so empty the last two nights without my little reading
partner; she always liked to sit on the bed with her upper body across
my arm and her paws on my shoulder while I read at night. Since she
became sick, she wanted to be with me all the time and she'd been
reading with me every night for weeks.
I keep thinking back to our trip to the oncologist; only last
week and it seems forever ago. Even though the news for Mandy was not
good, we had a lovely day and I am so grateful for it. She and
Wink snoozed the whole way home. They were all curled up together on
their faux mink and listening to their special pet music. I kept
turning back to look at them and it was so peaceful and loving. We
stopped where I work to feed my feral colony and I took the carrier out
of the car and set it on the ground while I fed; Mandy trotted right to
the front and began to "meow" to Depot Charlie! She was such a little
talker and he looked so puzzled! I'm happy they were able to "meet".
Thank you all for being here and for your good thoughts and
wishes; I'd be completely lost without you during this year of terrible
losses. I have to try and concentrate on how fortunate we were to have
shared her short life. I miss her; we had our morning routine of
putting the ingredients in the food processor and she'd "talk" to me
once the whirr of the blade sounded. These last two mornings have been
empty, as well. You are the only ones who understand the huge hole in
our home despite the joy of our other cats.
Love, Julie
"I hold that, the more helpless a creature, the more entitled it is
to protection by man from the cruelty of man. "
"The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged
by the way its animals are treated."
Mohandas Gandhi (1869-1948)
Paws Come WITH Claws!!!
If you're thinking about de-clawing your cat, you need to re-think your
decision to acquire a pet.
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