Animal communication

[Lomaxturtle]

Wendy   I don't know if you were a member when I had Bramble so apologies if you heard this already and to those who have already heard this story as many of you have.   I had never really attempted animal communication before either but decided to try following advice from people here when I hit a dilema with Bramble. I only had him 6 months in total from the sanctuary - he was FIV and already sick when I took him in.   He had many problems including calicivirus, dental probs, skin probs, keratitis etc... I gave all 3 of my cats revolution for flea prevention - here in UK there was no warning on packaging against giving it to cats with diseases or underweight cats. Bramble went into quite nasty seizures for a couple of days after I put the revolution on him and at first I was assured it was FIV in his CNS and to put him to sleep. Something was telling me this was wrong and people here gave me info and experiences in relation to reactions from flea meds - so I held out and his seizures got less severe. There's no doubt he had CNS probs from FIV related illness but the revolution just massively exacerbated it and then he returned to his normal levels of seizure activity afterwards. He did well for another couple of months.   During this time I was told by people here about communicating with animals and decided to try. I explained to Bramble how much I loved him and wanted to help him and that I'd miss him if he wasn't here. But I told him that I didn't want him to be in pain and if he had had enough and wanted to let go then it was ok for him to do that and I'd be here with him. I told him that he could leave his body and his spirit could stay here and that he could be here or come to me whenever he wanted. I also told him to let me know in some way if he felt he needed help and explained to him what would happen with euthanasia. Bramble got very restless and upset and walked away from me in a sulk and giving me definite unhappy signals. I took this to mean he wasn't ready and he calmed down when I acknowledged this and told him it was ok and I was happy to keep fighting with him. At this point I was so confused and prayed each night for a sign that I was doing the right thing. One night the face of my angel tidge (last FIV cat) appeared in a dream and a voice saying keep going. Bramble improved with good vet and my care for another 2 months.   Unfortunately he ended up getting another bout of calici which he didn't shake off with Virbagen Omega and he entered into acute kidney failure. He stopped eating and I was having to assist feed hoping it would make him eat again but it didn't - he just got stressed and was trying to hide. I knew in my heart he was giving up so I brought him out from hiding and did the whole talk with him again as I did before. This time he just lay on me purring as I talked to him and when I told him I'd help him if he needed me to he moved his paw up and gave me a gentle squeeze and it was as if he was saying "yes I've had enough now" and he was the most comfortable he'd been all week. I made the appointment and he was put to sleep that day.That last hour of having him content with his paw on my shoulder was priceless. Although it hurts so much anytime you have to lose your babies it was probably the only one true time that I didn't feel guilty about putting to sleep. I never pts unless I know it's the right thing to do but there is still usually some feeling of guilt and the what if's in me. This was certainly the right time and I was happy that everything had been done for him in the time I had him. Whereas if I'd put to sleep the 2 months prior to that it would have left me riddled with guilt because Bramble wasn't ready to go.   I would not have believed the power of that communication had I not been through it with Bramble. Still hurts and I still cry as I write about it even now because I can still feel his little squeeze but I can honestly say I had never experienced communication with an animal like I did with Bramble - I got that because I opened my mind to it - now I'm converted - and it got me 2 more precious months with my angel boy..   Michelle, Minstrel, Buddy & Angel Bramble