Michelle, You are truly an angel. I couldn't do this over and over. I just couldn't. All of us have special reasons why we are here, and caring for these FeLV kitties is definitely one of yours. I know what you mean about the day to day struggle and trying to figure out courses of treatment, getting desperate, and trying to figure out if the vet is on the money or if there might be a better way. You hit the nail right on the head. Maybe if I wasn't so attached to Cricket, it might have been a little easier. We have 11 cats, 3 are my nephews, 2 strays, 3 are my dad's (mine now), and 3 are mine. My 3 live indoors, including Cricket, and Cricket and I had our little routine every day. He would get in the shower with me in the mornings, and I would turn on the bathroom faucet for him to drink. When I was home, he was always in whatever room of the house that I was in, keeping a watchful eye on me. Like Belinda's cat Buddie, he wasn't overy affectionate, but did seek me out when he wanted to be petted. He loved tuna fish and if I asked if he wanted to go outside, he would run to the door, as he loved basking in the sun. I don't have that type of relationship with the outside kitties and I know it would be hard to let them go, but not as hard. I feel as if I've lost a part of my day, you know? Part of me in a way.
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