Nina, you have such a way to express the feelings and I love it ----I feel so totally agree with Nina, Chandra and Julian - Buddha's soul is still right besides you and have not left you -- so don't be too lonely... I know it's painful to not to be able to hold him anymore.. but in a way, he is probably much closer to you. I still talk to my Garfunkle every day like he is still there.. for some reason, I feel his presence as he is still here.. and I know that he is..
-----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of chandra simms Sent: Friday, January 06, 2006 12:51 PM To: [email protected] Subject: Re: Buddha, Chandra and Julian Nina, Thank you so much. I am very thankful that you shared Molly's story. It makes me feel so much better about the difficult decision we made to not let Buddha get to that point. Chandra --- Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > Chandra and Julian, > I'm so, so sorry to hear about Buddha passing. The > week of him being > back to his old self was such a wonderful gift for > all of you! I know > that you cherished every minute of it. My sweet > little Molly, the > second of my felv litter to pass also had a tumor > behind her eye that > caused it to bulge. She wasn't with me, she had > been adopted out before > we knew of her status. The family she went to had > been struggling so > hard to help her get well and were on their way to > the vet's when her > eye burst from the pressure of the tumor. I only > tell you this so you > won't ever feel that your decision to help Buddha > cross was the most > loving thing you could have done for him. Everyone > on this list knows > that it doesn't matter how long, or short our time > together is, we are > never ready to say goodbye to our sweet loved ones > with fur. You three > have such a strong connection, it lives on still. I > have no doubt that > Buddha will somehow make his presence known to you > to let you know that > he's once again, healthy, happy and has never left > you. Keep your heart > and mind open to the signs that he continues to love > you and that > someday you'll be together again. Don't be > surprised if another needy > angel shows up at your door. I'm betting Buddha is > bragging about you > in Heaven. > Much love to you in your sorrow, > Nina > > chandra simms wrote: > > >Michele and all the wonderful members of this > group, > > > >I am sorry I have not written in a while, but it > was a > >very hard holiday and I haven't really had the > >emotional strength to post until now. > > > >The last time I posted, Buddha was having his best > >week since being diagnosed with lymphoma at the > >beginning of December. He was back to his old self > >and acting as if he was feeling fine, however four > >days before Christmas he took a serious turn for > the > >worst. The tumor behind his eye quickly began to > >cause the eye to bulge and protrude out of the > socket > >and the pressure it put on his little brain began > to > >effect his other neurological functions. He > >completely lost his appetite, the ability to see in > >either eye, and to walk. Although he was > conscious, > >he was fairly catatonic and had pretty much > completely > >checked-out by that point. We talked to the vet > and > >she said that there was no getting better from that > >point and also that the eye would soon either pop > out > >on its own, or we would have to have it removed, > which > >we did not want to him to have to go through. So > on > >the 23rd we made the excruciating decision to help > him > >let go. > > > >My mother lives about 45 minutes away in Denton, so > we > >buried him in the yard at her house and decided to > >just spend the week there. Neither Julian or I > were > >anxious to get home and begin the process of > packing > >away Buddha's things. Having all the visiting > family > >in town really helped to provide a slight > distraction, > >especially since I couldn't go much more than five > >minutes without crying for the first 2 days. > > > >Although I knew this time would eventually come and > I > >was able to gather so much strength from all the > >advice and good wishes from this group over the > past > >month, I was completely unprepared for the amount > of > >grief I felt. Since he lived so long without any > >symptoms I think I was in denial that the day would > >ever actually come. > > > >I am almost ashamed of how lucky I feel to have had > >him in my life for 14 years, and my heart truly > bleeds > >for those of you who lost your friends sooner and > >didn't have as much time together as we did. > > > >I will be forever grateful to all the members of > this > >list and honestly don't think I could have endured > the > >pain that the last month brought without you. > > > >I don't know how to go about it or if it is too > late, > >but I would like for Buddha's name to be added to > next > >Monday's candle light memorial service. If it is > >still possible that is. > >Could someone please tell me who I should contact > for > >that. > > > >Once again, on behalf of Buddha, Julian and myself, > > >thank you all so much! > > > > > > > > > > > > > >--- [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: > > > > > > > >>Thinking of him and hoping he is still feeling > >>better. Please give us an > >>update when you get a chance. Having been through > >>the rollercoaster of lymphoma > >>several times, I really feel for you and Jen, who > >>has Ewok, and think about > >>Buddha and Ewok multiple times throughout the day. > > >>I hope he is still > >>feeling well, but know there are so many ups and > >>downs. Please let us know how he > >>is when you get a chance. > >>Thinking of the two of you, > >>Michelle > >> > >> > >> > > > > > >Love is not necessary to life, but it is what makes > life worth living. > > > > > > > >__________________________________________ > >Yahoo! DSL - Something to write home about. > >Just $16.99/mo. or less. > >dsl.yahoo.com > > > > > > > > > > > > > Love is not necessary to life, but it is what makes life worth living. __________________________________________ Yahoo! DSL - Something to write home about. Just $16.99/mo. or less. dsl.yahoo.com
