Oh, Nina...I was holding it together fairly well until I read your email! :) Thank you so much for all of your support for the past few months...it means the world to me, I only wish you were closer so that I could give you a big hug!
I rather enjoyed working from home up until now... ;) The constant reminders of his physical presence are sometimes too much to bear! He was/is so special to me...I've had others break my heart by their departure...but none quite like this! I'm driving his brother, Sleepypants, crazy right about now! :) Every time I need a little "pick-me-up," I bury my face in Sleepypants' fur because he smells just like Ewok...actually he smells more like Ewok dipped in oil because Sleepypants' favorite sleeping spot is on a table in the garage... ;) I know Ewok is okay, though...I saw him in a dream last night...I was rounding a corner in my house and there he was, standing there and looking at me. I knelt and called him to me and he ran over and rubbed himself on my legs...to say that I was ecstatic is an understatement! He then went into the garage, and when he returned my sister was there (she's still among the land of the living, of course...)...she said, "I don't see what the big deal is!" I took that to mean that *Ewok* didn't understand what all of the fuss was about...He's still with me, he's right here, so why am I so upset?? Perhaps I didn't explain to him very well that human beings are a little quirky sometimes... :) Oh, well...I know the pain and emptiness will subside, it always does...I was able to call up the pet memorial place that is cremating his body...I ordered a wonderful little ceramic cat urn...very Egyptian and statuesque and very much in the spirit of my Fuss (it's actually been kinda strange calling him "Ewok"...of course, that was the name given to him shortly after birth...but it was a generic name as we had homes lined up for most of the kittens...when we found out they had leukemia, we kept them all...wow, I never thought about this...but if he hadn't had leukemia, I probably would never have gotten to know my sweet little boy! Anyway, all of their names started to morph into something more personal...Ewok became "Baby Boy" because he was the youngest...that name morphed into "Burboy" for short...he also became Fuss Fuss because of his, um, "refined" sensibilities...if I did something not to his liking, I heard about it!). Anyhoo, probably more than you wanted to know... ;) But I appreciate having your ear... :) I've sent a couple of emails out now to group members and have a good chronicle of his life started! Thanks, again, Nina...I feel so humbled to have such a wonderful, caring person like you in my life! Lots of Love, Jen **************************************************** "But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world; You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed..." --Antoine de Saint-Exupéry "If you talk to the animals they will talk with you and you will know each other. If you do not talk to them you will not know them, and what you do not know you will fear. What one fears one destroys." --Chief Dan George ----- Original Message ----- From: Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> Date: Friday, January 13, 2006 11:00 am Subject: Re: We said good-bye to Ewok this morning > Hello Jen, > I'm so sorry that you and Ewok have lost your fight. I've been > away > from the computer for the last week because of back problems, but > you > and the other kitties on the list have never left my thoughts and > prayers. Bless you and your sweet little Ewok, your love gave him > a > taste of what Heaven is like right here on earth. I'm so sorry, I > know > how much it hurts and what a terrible void he's left. Please try > to > think of him as having left the room, just out of eyesight, but > still > with you. He is you know. Except now, he feels no more pain, no > more > discomfort. Except now, he understands the 'whys' of it all. He's > free > from all our earthly strife, free to enjoy his brothers and fur > Momma > again. He made the right choice when he chose you for a friend and > guardian. What a blessing that he and his wonderful little family > found > you, what a blessing that you recognized him and held him to your > heart. So much love and commitment, what more could any of us wish > for? I know the lessons you learned together are worth the pain, > I'm > just so sorry that our growth has to come at such a high, high price. > Blessings and love to you and your family, > Nina > > [EMAIL PROTECTED] wrote: > > >More later as the pain is a little too fresh, right now...But I just > >wanted to thank you all for all of your advice and warm wishes. > Ewok is > >now with his Mom and brothers Pips, Charlie and Chinney catching > up on > >old times! > > > >Lots of Love, > > > >Jen > > > >
