Hey Becca, Keep in mind that you are going through a process that every single person goes through when they lose someone they love. And I think when we are in charge of caring for a loved one, it may even be more difficult because we are put in a position of making choices and decisions that either make things better or worse, which is one of life's unfair lessons. Second guessing is very normal, and you will eventually come out of most of it. The important thing to remember when you are second guessing is that you made ALL your decisions out of love, and Paassht knew that. Even if a decision would have given her one more day, it might have been a bad day for Paassht, you know? She might have been in pain. So her passing came when it was supposed to come and you had no control over that. We'll never be able to make all the right choices because we don't have full disclosure. Seek peace Becca and try to find comfort in your memories and love of Paassht. Go easy on yourself. I found that time has been my best ally in grieving over Cricket.
Take care, :) Wendy --- Becca DuBose <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: > I suppose it's normal to second guess every choice, > everything I did or didn't do. > > Starting with the reading I should have done months > if not years ago. Paassht developed Horner's > syndrome in October 2004. I read today that this > may be a sign of mediastinal lymphoma > (http://maxshouse.com/Oncology/feline_lymphoma_and_leukemias.htm). > Paassht was a very active cat - we frequently > remarked upon her "eternal kittenhood" - and she was > still very healthy at that time with no other signs > of illness. > > I've been agonizing over not giving her a dose of > prednisone (prescribed by her regular vet on Monday) > on Monday night. I was going to wait until Tuesday > because I thought she'd had enough stress for one > day. I also wasn't sure I could safely give her a > pill, even a tiny half tablet. I just can't stop > wondering if it could have had any effect on the > fluid buildup. > > Add to that some regrets over taking her somewhere > unfamiliar, to a doctor who didn't really know her. > They offered to call our regular vet and now I wish > I'd had them do so. I would feel much better > knowing her regular doctor concurred. > > Becca > > Missing Paassht > http://paassht.blogspot.com/ > > > __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Tired of spam? Yahoo! Mail has the best spam protection around http://mail.yahoo.com
