Oh, Nina! I'm so sorry...Please don't blame yourself, it sounds like Ceasar knew what he was doing and just who to go to for the relief he so desperately needed. He obviously trusted you...what a blessing that he knew he could come to you! Please take care of yourself...Ceasar is no longer in pain and well on his way to his next big adventure!
Jen **************************************************** "But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world; You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed..." --Antoine de Saint-Exupéry "If you talk to the animals they will talk with you and you will know each other. If you do not talk to them you will not know them, and what you do not know you will fear. What one fears one destroys." -- Chief Dan George "The flame that burns twice as bright burns half as long..." --Blade Runner ----- Original Message ----- From: Nina <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> Date: Friday, July 7, 2006 2:31 pm Subject: Ceasar is no longer in pain (please add him to the CLS) To: [email protected], Paul Hendel <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> > Hello my beloved group, > I just got the call from the vet. Ceasar had deep puncture wounds > that > were abscessed all over his body, the deepest around his neck and > the > most infected on his rear leg, no wonder my brave little man was > limping. He had a high fever and the worst news of all, he was > felv+. > They hadn't yet investigated why his nose was bleeding, or why > there was > blood in his saliva. The vet, who is always reluctant to > recommend > euthanasia, said if she were Ceasar she wouldn't want to wake up > from > the kind of pain he must have been living with. I still > hesitated, I > still thought maybe there was a way. I asked if there could be > any > doubt about his status, the answer was an unequivocal no. Before > we > left for the vet, he allowed me to stroke him through the grate of > the > trap. His skin was covered with small lesions, with that gritty > feel > that comes from flea infestation. Poor little lamb! He was > angry, but > he didn't try to scratch me, or even hiss. I spoke softly to him > and > told him how much he was loved and that he was finally home. I > had so > prayed that I would be bringing him back to comfort and security > this > afternoon. I had to finally decide to let him go. I'm so sick > about > not being able to trap him when I first met him, maybe he would be > healthy today. I feel like I failed him, my only consolation is > that > he's no longer suffering, he's no longer confined, and he's no > longer > producing felv kittens. He lived the hard life of a cat on the > street > and I helped him as best I could. Thank you all for caring about > a > special little feral boy and understanding how he has left an > imprint on > my heart. > Bless you my sweet, brave, clever friend. I will love you always. > Nina > >
