RE: I almost lost Naomi at the vet this morning !----

[Hideyo Yamamoto]

You are right, Nina, I need to be sending her positive energy. Though it is hard to watch her as I know that she is not feeling well.. but I don’t know what I could do to help her.. she hates it when I syringe feed her, but I have to – we have not ruled out FIP completely as we are still waiting for the result form IDEXX.. high TP and low PCV makes me very nervous as they both can be symptoms of FIP.. but even if that’s what she has,,, nothing is going to change it.. I will just love her even more .. I just want to make her feel better so that she can play with her brother and sister and all of her friends….and I wish I could help her more..   From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Friday, July 28, 2006 12:48 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org Subject: Re: I almost lost Naomi at the vet this morning !----   Hideyo, You know how much I love you and admire you, I hope you keep that in mind while I speak frankly...  You need to get a grip on your emotions and stop stressing Naomi and yourself out so much.  You got the blood drawn finally, at least you've now had a second educated opinion that it is not FIP.  PLEASE stop sending Naomi signals that you expect her to deteriorate and pass.  That may be what happens, but you will only make matters worse with your energy being so frantic and pessimistic.  You need to breathe, girl.  You need to step back and realize that life and death are NOT in your control and stop blaming yourself before the fact for anything that might go wrong, or any weakness that Naomi might have come into this world with.  Not everyone born is meant to live a long, healthy life, some beings are only here for a short time.  Concentrate on making the time you have with her full of appreciation and acceptance.  Stop sending her the message that she is not 'good enough' the way she is.  She is telling you loud and clear that being stressed over and rushed to vets is not the way she wants to live her life.  Peace, love and harmony, while it may sound trite, can and does work miracles.  Start changing the energy you surround yourself and your loved ones with.  Know, as everyone of us already do, that whatever you do, it is out of love and concern and no matter what the outcome, it is enough.  It is all there is. With much love and concern for both of you, Nina Hideyo Yamamoto wrote: Hi, everyone, I took Naomi to the vet (another vet) to see if she can draw blood from her,, if her symptoms are caused by something treatable I wanted to make sure that I find out and treat it (she so hates to be seen by vet, she gets really stressed out).   They wrapped her with a towel like burrito.. and draw blood from her.. and they were able to (but she screamed so much. I felt so badly..) and they when they picked up she stopped breathing for a second,,, and looks like she was going to pass.. and the vet freaked out and so did I .. and she did mouth to mouth to her and brought her back.. did not know exactly what happened.. and took a while but she started breathing okay.. she thinks that since she is so stuffed out.. and couldn’t breath with stress she just went through.. oh my gosh,, you guys,, I would have regretted for the rest of my life if she passed away… I got so scared…   This vet does not think she has FIP.. but she is showing some unexplainable neurogical signs (tilting head and sort of wobbling head) and I am so scared.. her PCV was 20 and TP was 8 which is higher than I want it to be.. we will find out tomorrow from IDEXX regarding the total body function.. please please pray that she does not have FIP and there is a way that we can treat her and make her feel better.. she is just so precious…   Hideyo