Has Lucy passed? t Hideyo Yamamoto <[EMAIL PROTECTED]> wrote: Michelle has unsubscribed the list -- Michelled called me and I had a long conversation this afternoon, I have not read Michell's posting or other's postings regarding the topic.
I feel very strongly that we are here to support each other and not to be judgemental and not to assume anything.. There was time, when I was losing my kitties one oafter the other, I felt really bad by some of the postings which I felt were judgmental and I decided not to share my problems with my kitties any more on the list -- "judgment" is the last thing we need when we are going through difficult times with our kitties. A topic of when to say good by is can be very controverrtial issue -- I am probably one of the last person to decide to euthanize a cat -- partly due to my religious belief and partly because, I don't feel right to do it == it does not mean I am selfish - just as I am not going to be convincing people when not to ,, I would like not to be told when to do either.. but I am never going to be judgmental when others due when they do from caring.. We just need to respect each other --I will continue to pray for Michelle and her previous baby, Lucy...' Hideyo -----Original Message----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] [mailto:[EMAIL PROTECTED] On Behalf Of Nina Sent: Sunday, February 04, 2007 6:02 PM To: felvtalk@felineleukemia.org; [EMAIL PROTECTED] Subject: My Dearest Michelle Oh Michelle, I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine how awful it must be to be in the middle of this torment and feel like you have to stay away from the usual support of the list because we've hurt you even more. I'm so upset, I've been so upset right along side you throughout this. All I want to do is ease your burdens and help Lucy in whatever way I can and I'm falling so short of doing that. It sounds familiar, huh? Maybe I should take my own advice and stop struggling so hard to help "fix" things. I wasn't sure if I should write to you. I wasn't sure if any thing I had to say would be welcome. I've given you my phone number, I'm here supporting you day and night, even if you never pick up the phone. I don't want to intrude any more than I have, I just wanted you to know that I care and I'm so sorry for all you guys are going through. You asked how you would know what Lucy wants, how to know if she is ready ... That's part of the reason I've been so insistent about quieting yourself, quieting all the stress, you need to be quiet and still to "hear" her. The experience I had with Spencer will stay with me forever. That last day shared with him was full of love and magic. I've never been more connected in love with another being. It wasn't like I planned to call the vet when he could no longer hold up his head, until he was so exhausted that he no longer was able to move, I simply waited until I /knew/ he was ready. Until I knew we were through saying our goodbyes. It was sort of like seeing someone off at the railway terminal and even though their train isn't leaving for another couple of hours, it's still time to part, there's nothing more to say or experience, so you walk away with a hug and a kiss and tears running down your face. He truly seemed to be telling me, it's okay Mom, it's time for me to leave. From what you last described with Lucy, it doesn't sound like she's there yet. Only the three of you will know if she wants help crossing. No one else can tell you that. Trust the connection you share, you said that you have made arrangements if her suffering becomes too great, in the meantime bask in her companionship for as long as you can. It may seem ridiculous, but I'm still praying for miracles. I'm praying for you, Gray and Lucy to share the kind of intimacy that Spencer and I had. I'm praying for strength and comfort for you. I'm praying that you feel the love that so many people are sending your way to try and help you through this. Maybe it's not such a bad thing to go off list for a while. This time is sacred and I know you want to focus your attention on Lucy, if being on list causes you more anguish, or pulls your attention from Lucy in any way, then staying away from the computer may be what you need to do. With much love, Nina
