At 12:16 PM 3/23/2007, you wrote:
I know it is so hard, Did they transfuse him, just to buy some time
for the medication to kick in, I know I needed to do that with grace,
eventhough it was temporary, She had a year after that.
Kelly
Marissa,
Get the numbers out of your head. They won't do you any good at
this point except to possibly make you feel disheartened. We all
have a tendency to mourn our babies before they are gone, maybe it's
sometimes necessary to prepare ourselves, but the most important
thing I've found is to stay in the moment, to enjoy their physical
presence. Let's face it, when we love this strongly, we are rarely
prepared to let them go.
So do your best to remind yourself that he's still here! It has
helped me to let go of the strangle hold that expectations can cause
and to just BE. To relax just a little bit and live and love in the present.
Where there is life there is hope.
I can also relate to how hard it is to let them be away from our
physical embrace, if that is what they choose. You might want to
transfer your dismay of him being under the bed to concentrating on
connecting with Slink mentally when this happens. Memorize what
it's like to commune with him without actually touching him. Send
him conscious waves of love and know he is not isolated, he's
wrapped up warm and snug in that love. Talk to him and listen for
the answers that pop into your head. I don't know what your beliefs
are about continuing life after this one, but I believe in it
strongly. Heaven forbid he doesn't make it through this, reaching
out to him without touch now may help you to connect with him when
his time finally comes, (whenever that might be).
There is a spot in my garage that Bruce and I have come to call the
"portal". We've had several cats go to this particular corner when
they are in crisis. Now it may just be that they prefer it because
it's a cool spot away from the commotion of our hectic household,
but my first reaction is always NO! Come away from there! When I
regain my composure, acceptance of whatever 'will be' brings me a
sense of calm and it pleases me to think that all my furry loved
ones that have transitioned may be giving my sick baby encouragement
and perhaps even a preview of the wonderful world to come.
Hang in there Marissa, none of us knows what is to be,
Nina
Marissa Johnson wrote:
Hey Wendy. No problem...it is good information. Generally I
believe in holistic medicine and have even thought of taking Slinky
to a holistic vet (if I can afford it). I called someone yesterday
to see if she could come in and do some T Touch and accupressure with him.
It's just hard when you feel like everything you read says
something different (I remember going through that when I was
trying to figure out what to feed him). But at this point I feel
like we're doing everything we can.
Not so good news on the Slinky front. We just got back from he
vet...took him in to give him his first shot of IR. They did
another CBC to get a baseline so we can tell if the IR is
helping...and his HCT is down to 7!!! It was 9 when we were there
on Wed. :( But we gave him the IR and I guess all we can do now
is see if it works. He seemed to perk up a bit when we got home,
but nonw he's pretty much sacked out on the bed. I'm really
praying for a miracle...but I know I have to love him enough to let
go as well if that's what he needs. :'(
It's INCREDIBLY hard to let him sit under the bed alone, but I want
him to be in control of what happens with and to him, not me. He
is back on the bed now...sleeping. I'm praying the IR works as I
think it's the last thing we have left to try. The vet was shocked
he hasn't lost weight and isn't having trouble breathing...so he
seems to still be fighting. Thanks for all the GLOW!
Hugs
MJ & Slinky ^-^
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