Please, please, please continue her daily shots of dex. The situation
you share with Kisa is so eerily familiar that I don't think her current
rebound is coincidental with the administration. It's such wonderful
news that you've gotten a reprieve with sweet Kisa. I know how hard the
battle to restrain your hopes can be, esp with her showing interest in
food! You don't have to fight the feeling of happiness, you have every
reason to be joyful that she is still with you, and as I've said so many
times before, where there is life there is always hope. Do your best to
be grateful without being expectant; continue to stand by her and enjoy
her presence without quantifying it. I don't even have to preface my
following advice with "if I were you", I WAS YOU just a few short months
ago, (I went through this very thing with my Angel Spencer). I was
given the opportunity to let go of the "decision dance" (as our friend
Leslie put it) and free myself of the anxieties, frustrations and
expectations that come with so desperately trying to save our fur kids.
Somehow I was given the strength to release all that and live every
moment fully cognizant of the gift of reprieve with my Spencer. It was
one of the most rewarding times of my life and I'll always be grateful
to him for the opportunity. You see, Spencer gave me the opportunity to
let go of my fear, to accept whatever might come and to commune with
another being in the purest form of simply BEING. My prayer for you is
that you are able to step away from your expectations, love her
unconditionally and be grateful for whatever time the two of you have
left in the physical, be it long or short.
Many blessings and much love,
Nina
C & J wrote:
A small update on Kisa.
I didn't think she would make it through the night, and at one point I
checked on her and thought she was gone, because I didn't see the
heavy breathing.
She did make it through the night, and I was seriously considering
taking her in to the vet for euthanasia. I asked her if I should, and
was very upset I wasn't strong enough to make that decision.
Well, now she actually looks a little bit better. She's very weak,
but she seems more alert and her breathing, while still fast, isn't
quite as labored and she's not breathing through her mouth. It could
be the dexamethasone making some sort of difference.
And then the strangest thing of all happened, she ate about 1 and a
half tablespoons of pureed liver, by licking it off the back of a
spoon. This is the first time in two weeks since this started, that
she didn't gag at the very sight/smell of food. I couldn't believe
she actually ate. She must not be feeling as nauseous, and so far she
hasn't vomited today.
I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but this is the first positive
thing that has happened for her in two weeks. I guess we'll just have
to wait and see how she does over the next couple of days. If she's
trying to get better, she has an awful lot to overcome yet in order to
do so.
I've got a full IV bag of sub-q fluids to keep her hydrated at least.
Just a question on that, how much fluid should she get in a day? I
gave her about 100ml, six hours ago, and it still hasn't all soaked in
from under the skin at the back of her neck.
Cassandra
