Marty, Did you take Pudge yet? I am sorry but you mentioned taking Pudge tomorrow. I know I am behind but you said that your boyfriend misses Pudge already.
Carla Thank you for your words of kindness. My vet talked to me about how stoic cats, how they refuse to let you know that something is wrong with them until it's almost too late. So when we do learn of the illness, the loss is devastating and quick. I only wish my recovery would be quick. My boyfriend actually apologized when he finally saw how bad Pudge was. He assumed I was overreacting - he was stunned to see the deterioration in Pudge's ability to breathe. And of course he immediately blamed the vet.... just like a man to find someone to blame. I know he misses Pudge already too. Marty ----- Original Message ----- From: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Sent: Monday, December 17, 2001 2:31 PM To: [EMAIL PROTECTED] Subject: Re: Talked to the vet Martha, I am sorry about the cancer. I keep saying I wish I found this group earlier too. I guess we all can say that if we knew now what we knew then. I just lost my little one to cancer about 6 weeks ago. He was doing great infact his last test on elisa was negative. He still tested on IFA Positive but I really felt he had a chance to beat the odds. With his elisa test I really felt he was showing signs of good health and if nothing else would be lucky and live long being positive. I always knew he could get sick but I was in shock when 6 weeks after his negative Elisa, he coughed I brought him in for xrays and it was cancer. It just happened way to fast one day you are happy and the next day you are sad. I too wish I knew earlier maybe there could have been more I could have done. He only lived 11 days after they found cancer. It's very hard to deal with. We tried what we could in the time we had but time wasn't on our side. As for your boyfriend mine is the same way. Just ignore him if he doesn't understand oh well you have to live with your choice and choosing Pudge at this time will set better in your heart to know that you did what you could for him. Thinking of you and Pudge, know that you have done a lot for him. Feeling helpless is part of caring for him at this time and means you are only to be blamed for being a caring loving mom to Pudge. Carla I just talked to Pudge's vet. He said the only thing we can do for him to help him breathe is to do a tracheotomy. He says the cancer has progressed too far and his system is most likely shutting down since he's not eating or using his box. So tomorrow I have to say goodbye to him. The vet says we've done everything we could do. I wish I could have found you guys two months earlier. This is so hard.
