Where there is life, there is hope. That's why we always beat ourselves
up with the "what ifs" when we decide on euthanasia. You've gone
through so much, all of you have. I admire your fortitude and your
devotion. I hope you can feel us behind you and with you throughout
your ordeal. We are celebrating every purr and our hearts ache with
each report of weakness. I hope Kathy was right (thank you Kathy for
all your helpful posts and the work you do), when she said that this
preemptive grief helps the mourning process after our loved ones pass.
I'm still praying for a miracle.
Much love,
Nina
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Simon has been alert and eating all day long. I have no idea how much
he has eaten total, as it has been a little at a time, but would guess
it is the equivalent of between a half and a whole large (6 oz) cat
food can. He has also gone back to eating catnip and to rolling on
his back for belly rubs.
He is extremely weak, though. While he can go to the litter box on
his own again, he can onl y walk about 10 feet at a time and then has
to lay down. And he walks very slowly. I brought his friend Ginger in
to see him, who is the cat closest to him, and he was very interested
in her but did not get up to see her which he would have done if he
had the energy. He is now stretched out on his belly sleeping again.
All day today he was lying in much more normal cat positions, i.e.
curled up, etc. So I think his rally may just be in terms of eating,
and perhaps eating has on its own made him a little less wobbly.
I think, despite myself, I allowed this rally to put a bit of hope
back in my heart, and now the grief of thinking of him passing is
again so strong. I can not bear it. He has lost so much weight and
muscle mass just in the last few days. He looked pretty normal on
Friday, and now looks like a cat with advanced cancer. I would not be
surprised if he has lost 2 pounds or more since Friday. It is very
difficult.
While I was writing that last paragraph, he got up and walked a few
feet to his cat bed and curled up normally in it. It is as if he knew
what I was writing.
Thanks for being there and being part of this,
Michelle
