I still can't sleep. They'll hit boston, I say. They'll hit boston and everyone I know will be dead except for you. "You're an idiot. Everyone you know will be dead. Including me." I can't bear it. "Of course you can't. You weren't meant to. That's why we have television, god, heroin, and small talk." That's why I have you. "..." Maybe I should watch TV. "You're a coward." I'm paralyzed. Suddenly: I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of living, and dying just means I wasted all my time. Everyday is wasted in ten thousand ways if I am not infinite. Some time passes. "You watch too much TV." I've been waiting for you to come back. "I know." she says. "and I'm sorry." -e. _______________________________________________ Five7Five mailing list [EMAIL PROTECTED] http://www.pairlist.net/mailman/listinfo/five7five
