Because I wanted light the evenings grew too long to see it. Because I wanted hope, I grew too tired to stand. Because I wanted a conspirator, a mutual dream, a world of laughter; of soft touches to my arm. You cannot have the simple things. There are far too many intermediaries here; so I wonder why we have anything at all. It is not that the world is bad; or sad, or lonely; to these things I have grown accustomed. It is simply the boredom; the seasons change with no differences made. With no connections newly established and all the old ones faded. We cannot laugh like children We cannot stop and watch; our souls are rendered useless and lifeless and there is no pity from the mechanisms and the strings and the pulleys. I am tired of endurance. I am sick of these denials I solemnly refuse to stay within these constructions. I have nothing but venom and exhaustion. Remove each limb and you will see what I have for a soul. Incapable of building; incapable of walking, of moving, of deconstructing. Now, they've come to gouge my eyes; seal my lips in wax, fill my ears with putty. And there is no option then but to dream of spitting, and then to dream your arm lingered longer; and my eyes could take in all this light you exude too perfectly. If they left my arms I would build you a castle in the sand; and if they left my legs I would walk you to the towers and if I had my lips I would sing to you yes, I swear it, I would sing! And with my fingers I would grasp your fist in mine, and ensure you of your warmth; and in these arms I would tangle you up in joyous escapist hymns; and we would sleep, a long, restful sleep and dream our separate dreams to share when they conclude. And in the morning, we'd raise up arms against all these motherfuckers and the cogs, and the gears and we'd blow the guts out of this disgusting machine of universal sickness and mass produced despair. You and I, love: We are decidedly modern. -e. _______________________________________________ Five7Five mailing list [EMAIL PROTECTED] http://www.pairlist.net/mailman/listinfo/five7five
