I crushed my heart into my fists. I walked without thinking. Smiled without meaning. Heard nothing but the funeral marching in my head: He's already gone. gone. gone.
People spoke, I must have answered. But the room was spinning, and everyone was laughing as if the world had not just stopped. I went around in a daze. From time to time, I heard his name mentioned outloud, by one inquiring how he was, to one who presumably knew. And then, the silence. Maybe he was never here at all. I crushed petals beneath my feet as winter turned to spring. And summer and fall soon followed with the same cruelty. I've held on as though I had a reason to believe he ever wanted me. As though, other loves had not broken him and embittered him to this open heart that asked for nothing, except that he would receive and wake beside me happily. _____________________________________________ Free email with personality! Over 200 domains! http://www.MyOwnEmail.com Looking for friendships,romance and more? http://www.MyOwnFriends.com _______________________________________________ Five7Five mailing list [EMAIL PROTECTED] http://www.pairlist.net/mailman/listinfo/five7five
