Alan writes:
>my problem is that i'm scared, i think. 7 years of cognative therapy and i
>learned that at the point of "potential" success i break down. not how to
>prevent this though!
>i have several hundred unfinished pieces, unfinished so i dont know if there
>any good or not, i cant succeed but i cant fail.
>jist live in a frustrated state of limbo.
I feel similarly. A sort of paraysis grips me whenever I think about "finishing" or
presenting a piece of my art. Is it good enough? By this I mean, is it really worth
anyone's time to look at/listen to? There are those who think that any creative
enterprise has some worth. I do not agree with this. I think a lot of art (and I am
mostly talking about music/sound art, as that is what I am most familiar with) is made
just because people have become little "art factories" churning stuff out just because
they have the means of production set up, and not due to any higher artistic impulse.
I constantly scrutinize all of my work seeking for a trace of worth in it, to see if
it could have any value to someone else besides me. It is rare that something passes
my censors.
Something I did yesterday, which I like greatly, a little rectangle of blurry colors:
http://www.nd.org/jronsen/duchamp14.jpg
Is that worthwhile? I think so, but I could be deluding myself.
Art: what seperates art as a comodity in the capital-artistic machine from Art as a
transcedental experience? Am I deluding myself into thinking that I could ever produce
anything that wasn't the former?
That is what scares me.
-Josh Ronsen
http://www.nd.org/jronsen
ps: Alan, if you have several hundred unfinished pieces sitting around, habe you ever
considered sending them to other people (us, for example!) to finish them, as a
collaboration? That way, you would be freed from making that awful, terrifying leap to
the Finished. It would be out of your hands, and you could blame the other person if
the piece didn't turn out...
Just a thought...
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