FLUXLIST: Brian's list

[Meryl Gross2]

I've been away.  Now I'm back here.   Had a cell phone for three days once.  Returned it.  I don't want to be that accessible.   I have a driver's  license but almost never drive.  I walk or take mass transit.   I read and hoard books (and I work in the publishing industry).  I don't like the idea of "E-books."  Too clean.   I see deer shit out the window/   Never played a video game (except Pong).    Addicted to television.  Nonstop visual stimulation.   Don't really know how many emails I get daily.  Twenty?  Thirty?  Keep some.   Addicted to methamphetamine for just over two years (long ago). Still addicted to tobacco.  Invariably involved with alcoholics (sometimes active, sometimes dry), although I myself don't metabolize alcohol too well. Took loads and loads of pills.  Acid in college.  Dope in college (I've always found the opiates dull).  Pot in high school.  Cocaine in college and f or a few years after. Now, it's down to tobacco and the occasional Xanex.  Pathetic, really.   I have to interact with people every day, but I don't much think about it.   Some friends took me to Atlantic City so I could photograph Giant Jersey Butts and other boardwalk attractions.  It was ghastly, I loved it!  There's a statue of Bert Parks (he used to host the Miss America pagent for many years).  He's holding out a crown, and if you stand underneath it a hidden speaker starts blaring "here she comes, miss america..."  It's great.  I have no gambling luck whatsoever.  In fact, I may even be a jinx to other gamblers, so I don't gamble.  I like some slot machines, though.   Just came back from Wildwood New Jersey (down the shore).  The longest, trashiest boardwalk.  The googiest motels (we stayed at the Casa Bahama - all aqua/pink/yellow A frames).  It's just wonderful.  And I hate the beach.   BG